fapstraunaut90
Fapstronaut
Hey everyone,
Reached my initial goal of 90 days Hard Mode. This took more than 90 days though and a couple of smaller streaks, binge MO after every streak, mood swings, depression, anxiety (which is still there..i guess some of it should be there),restlessness, physical pain, flatlines, unimaginable powerful urges, guilt, pity and feeling like a looser who has no control over his mind.
But just like everyone who has completed their target on this forum, I did one thing which I believe made the difference for me. When I started this journey a couple of months back, I decided that I want change in my life and I need to change for it. This change has to come in many areas and PMO addiction was one big area for me. So i started with my PMO addiction first, and I in the first few streaks I realized that my addiction is way to big and strong than I had previously imagined. This shit was hard. So I made another decision that I am in this for the long haul. As long as it takes. This was a turning point in my ongoing recovery. And after this commitment I started my current streak and here I am today.
What i want to tell you guys who have really helped in along the way is that to first make a firm commitment to this challenge or whatever no of days you want to start with. There are tons of great posts here which will help you in overcoming the urges but before all that, MAKE A DECISION THAT YOU ARE IN THIS FOR AS LONG AS IT TAKES. Treat this as a game, you are a gladiator in the ring and each day you will have a new opponent(urges, pain etc) to beat the crap out of. Sometimes you win, sometimes you die but after each death you will resurrect again and start it again.
Finally in the end I would like to say that its worth it. All the pain, urges and shit at the 90th day really feels worthy enough to go through. That feeling of having a control over your senses is what fuels me. Don't think that no PMO will alone solve all your problems, I feel that it gives you energy to solve other issues in your life which you otherwise did not want to because you felt numb all the time. I am still in recovering from my addiction. Somewhat better but still have a long way to go.
A sincere thank you to all the members of this community. Each and everyone of us can do it. All the best everyone.
Reached my initial goal of 90 days Hard Mode. This took more than 90 days though and a couple of smaller streaks, binge MO after every streak, mood swings, depression, anxiety (which is still there..i guess some of it should be there),restlessness, physical pain, flatlines, unimaginable powerful urges, guilt, pity and feeling like a looser who has no control over his mind.
But just like everyone who has completed their target on this forum, I did one thing which I believe made the difference for me. When I started this journey a couple of months back, I decided that I want change in my life and I need to change for it. This change has to come in many areas and PMO addiction was one big area for me. So i started with my PMO addiction first, and I in the first few streaks I realized that my addiction is way to big and strong than I had previously imagined. This shit was hard. So I made another decision that I am in this for the long haul. As long as it takes. This was a turning point in my ongoing recovery. And after this commitment I started my current streak and here I am today.
What i want to tell you guys who have really helped in along the way is that to first make a firm commitment to this challenge or whatever no of days you want to start with. There are tons of great posts here which will help you in overcoming the urges but before all that, MAKE A DECISION THAT YOU ARE IN THIS FOR AS LONG AS IT TAKES. Treat this as a game, you are a gladiator in the ring and each day you will have a new opponent(urges, pain etc) to beat the crap out of. Sometimes you win, sometimes you die but after each death you will resurrect again and start it again.
Finally in the end I would like to say that its worth it. All the pain, urges and shit at the 90th day really feels worthy enough to go through. That feeling of having a control over your senses is what fuels me. Don't think that no PMO will alone solve all your problems, I feel that it gives you energy to solve other issues in your life which you otherwise did not want to because you felt numb all the time. I am still in recovering from my addiction. Somewhat better but still have a long way to go.
A sincere thank you to all the members of this community. Each and everyone of us can do it. All the best everyone.
