Bonjour & hallo

Hallo to everybody!

I am a 31 man living in Europe and I am having a lot of reasons to be a very happy person. I am in a long-lasting relationship with my beloved wife, I have a wonderful family with two children and an interesting (although stressful) job.

Nevertheless I am not able to quit porn although I have wished to do so for many years already. My "history" with porn goes back to times when I was 8 or 10 years old and since then porn was somehow present in my life and masturbation came with it.

I've been denying the "addiction" part of my habit for many years and I was trying to solve the problem with the religious arguments and methodology only or self-determination. It didn't work. About noFap community I got to know from one of the YouTuber who went through the process of Rebooting already & from the FightTheNewDrug channel. I have had once a 40 days without PMs but it came back again heavily. I must say that I haven't felt a much more better after this 40 days but I'm sure I don't want pornography and masturbation in my life. I treat it now as an addiction which affects my emotions and my daily routine very badly but I fear that giving up the pornography is impossible for me and if it's possible for some period then it will come back again sooner or later. How to deal with this fear?

I don't know really what to add to this but I just wanted to start somehow.... Is there anybody out there who went through similar problems or aspects?

 

Thank you! Do you have any experience or advices for those who actually don't believe they can win this fight?