Brain is mush close call - want to just vent here

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Wario32, Jun 8, 2019.

  1. Wario32

    Wario32 Fapstronaut

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    Been PMO free for while now - been working on a few things

    - Trying to cut fantasizing - struggle hard with this

    Other then that Its been going pretty smooth - Then I had very bad day yesterday were I started to venture into P- subs but stopped

    - I cant afforded to lose all the work I made and I am typing this now because my brain is mush and I cant think straight all -

    All I want to do is fap again but I know I will feel like shit and these feelings will pass - (its always better in the mind then doing deed I noticed)

    Im finally understanding the tricks the brain plays on you - it wants the dopamine - and the beast (the mind) has been dominant for a while - but im guessing the P subs woke it up a bit

    - im going to do the things that have been working out for me and not listen to all the bullshit the thoughts are saying - I dont need to relapse for something like this - it wont help and I know the feelings will pass

    - its like a strom.

    Thats my rant - it helps when I write it down and read to myself because my mind is broke right now
     
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  2. Morningmistanew

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    Stay committed to giving your reboot time! We know how s**ty we can feel being in a binge with seemingly no way out, yet our minds try to convince us "it's OK just this one time" to get that Dopamine rush. Don't go back there. Close the page on it. Do anything to move away from the thoughts that are trying to creep in...something that worked before, something different, get around people, stay on this site, read a book you always wanted to, ….. You can do it!
     
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  3. IGY

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    It sounds like you had a dopamine release to the p/subs. :eek:
     
  4. Wario32

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    Thanks man im going swimming right now - it should help
    Yeahh - I wouldn't be surprised if I did - I kinda feel happy now - but there no sense dwelling over it now. It didn't last very long if anything it could be much worse.
    When I relapse - I relapse hard - full O and hours and hours at looking at porn - I dont want to get there - every fiber in body is asking to look at P sub - I know were it will get me

    It was a bad day but I can whether the storm if I exercise and get some good sleep
     
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  5. Morningmistanew

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    Sounds like a great idea. Stay busy with good stuff.
     
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  6. I'm starting a p sub, 90 day challenge. I'm on day 1, I also feel the same way u do. Your welcome to join, we can keep each other accountable. Let me know what u think, send pm. If your interested. Anybody is welcome as well. If your struggling with p subs.
     
  7. Anonymous86

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    @Wario32 , are you still keeping your 48 day streak despite your unfortunate venture into porn subs?
     
  8. Wario32

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    Yes I am - since this is my first time it happened during my streak and could of gone much worse if I kept going that path. We're human, having a perfect streak is going to be extremely hard. I realized what was happening - I stopped and came on here to talk about it. In the past for sure - I would have a full blown relapse thinking its over and thats no point to continued.

    Thats BS - thats the mind talking.


    And thank you guys for all your responses - I did go swiming yesterday and doing some work now

    Whats helping me not full relapse it just telling your self you don't need it and the mind makes it better then it seems - When you do the deed it always sucks - you feel like shit and it was much better in your mind.
     
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