My girlfriend of 3 and a half years broke up with me a few months ago. I knew it was coming, and it was more of a mutual thing. But it hurts like hell. Porn was the easy distraction. I stopped using porn for the last year of our relationship. I felt guilty everyone I used. But this breakup put me right back into that pit. Everytime I feel depressed and lonely, I go into the shower, and watch. I want to stop, but the rush of the porn distracts me from my lonliness. It makes me feel like those women actually care about me and want to make me feel good. Even though I know that isn't true. I pray for God to help me beat this addiction. I hope that this forum is one way that he is doing so.