Brothers! I think I made it!

Went to bed before 23:30, tried to fall asleep but failed, started sex fantasy, was fantasizing the girl I used to unrequited love. Later, I tried to search porn website on my iPad, but finally! Finally, I put it down, yes, I put it down, take a few walks in my room. I feel sorry for that girl, once I swear no more fantasy on her. I believe I can get rid of the "shadow" of her.

I adore, like, love her since 2011(9 years). But I totally, completely understand we can't be together and understand she would marry someone in the future. I just want to let her go and try to find my own love in the future.

Thanks for the Holy Bible I put near my pillow.
My brothers, to the people who love us and whose we love, please try the extremely best to control yourself, for the lovely ones we fight for, for the unknown future we fight against, and for ourselves!