Busting myself, in a very slippery place saw P

Yo guys, just need to get honest in attempt to not loose all my time and slip back into the insanity. I have 9.5 months Hard Mode with no sex and no M at all. The longest time I have ever had..
I have a blocker on my computer that is suposed to turn off the web at 10pm.. i have known for a few months the timer aint working and I can also see google photo seach thumbs.. I have avoided looking at porn or nude pics until last night and this morning..
Last night it started with just bikini photo porn sub search. Found a hot girl and did a search her that led to nude photos. I tried to stay only on topless pix saying its only R rated.. but of course that led to below the waist too a bit.. i turned the computer off to save my self and went to bed..
My bocker normaly blocks 10pm to 9 am.. this is to also just keep me from wasting time online..
So then this morning i when i got up 6am i went to see if the timer was working.. it is for some websites like my email, but not facebook or google search.. i then started looking at pix again then started to look at full nude pix a bit of one women and all her stuff and really wanted to see her in the sex act and looked for that. Could not really find any real porn with her. Avoided any pics of others and stuff the best I could.. turned computer off and walked away..

This is really scary guys. Im anaddict and cant afford to slip back into the insanity.. i have not seen this stuff in almost a year. It was not that triggery and it felt weird like why is she doing this and it was not much of a turn on.. it seemed really empty and shallow and sad for her as a person..

I hope in posting this it will help me to stay in the right track and not slip any further.. I did not MO at all. But as close as you can get. I know nudes is porn even though not hardcore.

Checking myself before I wreck myslef..
This is on an old mac OS 10.6.8 that I use just for certain programs that apple dont make anymore and thus modern blockers dont work on it..
Any encuraging words is greatly appreciated.

 

Thanks guys.. here is an update.. so i made it through Thursday fine.. but Friday I got home from a long work day exausted.. and did some work on the computer for a client who was on a rush deadline and needed some materials.. then i goofed off online after my timer should of blocked youtube and watched a bunch of triggery youtube videos of top 10 porn star lists in differant catagories.. the top 10 lists were all still photos of non nude pics, but because porn actresses kind of toxic energy. I did a google photo search of a few who i thought were cute.. saw no nude photos of any of them.. except for a few small thumb nails in google video search that i tried to look away as fast as I could.. turned the computer off and went to bed.. So another close call, did not MO at all and saw no nude pics.. but felt more toxic as these where clothed pics of porn actreses..
On Saturday I called my accountability partner and told him whats up, he has the passwords for my blockers and we made an appointment to meet today, Sunday at 1pm to try to plug these holes and block some websites.. we are meeting at a SLAA, Sex and Love Addicts Anonymose meeting called Super Cyber Sober Sundays! Lol, a men's only meeting with a focus on not using porn and electonics to act out.. I also went to a cafe and wrote a prayer for help to get free and journaled and wrote out every image and lust hit I saw, I got them all down on paper and out of my head.. then tossed the paper in the trash and then wrote out a prayer asking for forgiveness and help to forgive myslef and for guidance on how to correct my wrongs and help to act better in the future.. this always helps to clear out lust hits from my mind and go back to a clean slate... And then I went to a coed SLAA meeting yesturday and told on myself for looking at the nude pics to the group.. After I shared and after the meeting it seemed like no big deal, who cares, big whoop, i saw some nude photos of women.. As normal grown adults its not that big a deal.. but I know for me it is and that this addiction has ruined my life and robbed me of dignity, self worth, health, and value in the world..
What I also think I need to do is not leave my computer on with this OS operating.. I mainly use a different OS that has better blockers, and only was using this one for this one job that has a program on it my client needs..
I feel i also need to hit the gym today and do some volenteer service work. That always really helps me get back on track and grounds me..
Thanks guys for all your posts and encouragement..

 

I do meditstr... but the keeping track of when i reach for porn subs or want to see bikini babes is a good idea..

 

Also to update. Yesturday I met with my guy who has the passwords.. we could not get into Net Nanny controls so I have to call them today for tech support, which was not open on sundays.. maybe my account had expired.. I also have k9 on it and it seemed to not work to block certain websites I put in the always block list.. hopefully I can get Net Nanny to work.. if not I might have to get rid of this OS completley..
And to all the people out there who say just have self disaplin and dont look.. in all the years ive been at this fight I have come to accept that that only works for so long.. as i can be strong but life happens and i loose control and will go back into the addiction if i have access to it.. life shocks like when my mom got cancer, or a break up, or i got fired from a job, or just being emotinaly wrecked will trigger me to find away to escape the emotinal pain im in and if I can just click a button to find escape with porn when im down and not strong i will. I have come to accept I need the blocks as I can be strong now, but i learned to take preventative measures now for in the future when i might not be as strong..