To try and keep things simple.... Here goes... Background. 25 year old, engineer, virgin, never been in a relationship. Masturbated at age 15, masturbated to porn at age 17. Issues. I have been feeling empty or what I would describe as a lack of emotions for the longest time (maybe 5 years). I think deep down I know what is the problem, but perhaps I'm just too afraid or even lazy to acknowledge it. Tried to quit pornography and masturbation. But didn't manage to do it entirely. Used to do it once everyday between age 17 and age 21. Now I do it on the weekends. Unfortunately, the hardest step is to quit it entirely. Anxiety, brain fog and awkwardness are some of the things I have been facing. But still bearable and able to deal with it. Just that it sucks having to deal with it. Part of my life. On certain occasions, I desire for sex. But after a while, the thoughts go away as I practically immerse myself in work, gym or watching movies during my free time. Always tried to force myself to step out of my comfort zone, try new activities, but just to lazy to do it because I am in that comfort zone. Summary. Not sure what you guys think of my situation, but just wanted to share. Even when I am typing this out, I can't really consolidate my thoughts well. Life is not too bad for me in terms of financial stability, health and family. But life can always be better if I have a companion to share my thoughts with or provide a listening ear. After all, who doesn't want to have a better life?