i came to an interesting realization today: i don't think i like orgasms. obviously, having an orgasm releases chemicals in my brain that i find pleasurable, just like everybody else. but i don't like the way i end up feeling after i have an orgasm, and honestly, i don't think i like the feeling of having an orgasm in the moment either. i was reading a lot about karezza and other related practices today, but it's not the first time i've questioned my enjoyment of orgasms. i've thought about it in the past, but i never really took the idea seriously, because, well, everyone likes to cum, right? i actually think this realization might make my reboot easier. once i've finished 30 days, i'm going to consider re-introducing a sort of "solo karezza" masturbation back into my routine, maybe once a week -- i.e. masturbation without a focus on achieving orgasm. i think this would be something i'd enjoy a lot more than "regular" masturbation, and it'd provide the benefit of being able to re-sensitize my junk and prepare myself for karezza-style sex in the future, since i doubt i'd enjoy having orgasms with a partner either. tl;dr you learn something new every day.