Can´t take it seriously

Hey community,

this porn addiction lasting over a decade now and I haven´t liberated myself from it yet.
At the moment I feel like the porn is doing me good and spikes the craving to watch it everyday.

Since the day my girlfriend has broken up with me, which ended my longest streak so far, I feel desperate for love and intimacy. In two weeks it all burned down.

Now I have to build it back up, but am so tired of trying to be the best version of myself. As you already might estimate it´s my own ego preventing me from fully embracing the new single life. Continual relapses will only lead to avoidance of real pleasure and chasement of false pleasure. Our natural drive to proactively strive becomes diminished, yet I don´t feel ready for anybody new in addition to the stress I`m exposed too.
How would you CONNECT the pursuit of happiness to the advantage of yourself and others?