Can anyone relate?

Yes. In a way I think what you're describing is more of the goal than number of days in a streak.

And it's interesting to look at the way many typically look at this process: As a fight. Or, it's the standard addiction narrative - taking it less literally that way but definitely a struggle with a certain self effacing twist.

That Jung quote in your signature fits well with this. Accepting it doesn't mean just taking it at face value though, or that you are necessarily something extreme like sociopathic.

If I was to characterize it it would be more like a roboticism. Even well meaning people working hard on their recovery can end up functioning that way, and I don't even think that's wrong at a certain phase to get things stable into a pattern. But you can have a routine and still feel a dullness like this, or don't feel things.

But you're probably doing alright or better than I am at least emotionally speaking, you thought of a song and it resonates enough for you to post it. I don't relate that much to music these days, although I think today I thought of an Eric Clapton song so that's something and also unusual for me... (Pilgrim btw)