Can I ever stop !??!

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Jerry Monroe, Aug 7, 2017.

  1. Jerry Monroe

    Jerry Monroe Fapstronaut

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    My name is Jerry, I have be addicted to porn for 14 years. Since the age of 13 I have had full access to porn either on my laptop or late on my phone. I have gone through trying to stop over and over again and fell can I ever stop! Every time I've tried to stop after a short while I start again. I know that it affects my life but after a few days of stopping I convince myself that it has no effect and that it's only another action I do during my day.
    I fell my brain is totally brainwashed to always revert to porn. It needs to see that naked flesh on screen. The desire is more in my head than in my pants.
    I always come to a crushing low after using it. Most of all because I know I have no self control I cannot seem to deny myself anything especially porn.
    So, I begin again today! I know that days 6/7 will be hard as they are always my revert days when I have freshly convinced myself to watch again.
    Please God, I want to stop. I cannot do it alone.
    Jerry
     
  2. Protagoras

    Protagoras Fapstronaut

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    Jerry, I am cheering for you. Use the tools on this website and charge on!
     
  3. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you.

    The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
     
  4. Jerry Monroe

    Jerry Monroe Fapstronaut

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    Im not quite sure. I need to build my self control. I need to maintain this forum and add to it each day. Having someone to account too makes a difference.
    Do you have any advice on moving forward?
     
  5. D . J .

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  6. Jerry Monroe

    Jerry Monroe Fapstronaut

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    It's been nine days and the journey so far has been good. The desires have not been that strong. There has been times that I wanted to look at simple nude images but I know where that leads.
    I do have feels of wanted to reward myself with a treat of watching porn. Sometimes whe I think of watching porn I have noticed that my mouth begins to salivate. Which just shows how deep this addition is.
    I got to keep on going!!!
     
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  7. Jerry Monroe

    Jerry Monroe Fapstronaut

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    I failed today! It happened so simply. Triggered my tiredness and boredom.
    I will not give in! I will pick myself up and start again.
     
  8. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    What could you have done differently which could have led to a different outcome?
     
  9. Jerry Monroe

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    I should have gone back to bed for an hour. I was off that day so I could afford to. Instead I sat in the living room trying to fight the triedness and boredom. I stayed up to late the night before and got up to early the next morning. Hoing to bed at a good time every night can help combat POM. This is another brick of understanding to build my wall of defence.
     
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  10. AliveAgain

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    I have been there and can completely relate to what you wrote. Setbacks are normal. Carrying on after repeated setbacks requires strength. That strength (and the benefits you will notice) will eventually see you through.
     

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