Can I talk to someone before I kill myself...

Hahah Sup man. I've been trying hard to not relapse or basically go back to my old ways. I did everything from working out hardcore, getting out of the house, and a cold shower.

I took a cold shower and was trying to fight the demons in my head. I was yelling, screaming, you name it.

Just had the COPS called on me apparently because they were worried after hearing it.
 
I've been doing well fighting it for several days (No PM mainly) but then it started to kick it hard after 1 or 2 weeks. I did relapse here and there but they were super minor relapses.

I get triggered every time I see a hot girl in public or on media and even when I just get home after doing stuff. Its habit and i'm trying to break it....
 
I did everything minus the cold shower and still relapsed. Man, I always fail at the four day mark nowadays. i really really really want to reach 14 again. I want this voice in my head to stop justifying watching porn. I want to stop getting overpowered by urges. I want to be able to do what I did in January. I said " it stops here" and went 29 days clean. I just can't seem to do it anymore. I always pray to the LORD but I keep failing regardless. I keep letting him down
 
pillan24 said:
I did everything minus the cold shower and still relapsed. Man, I always fail at the four day mark nowadays. i really really really want to reach 14 again. I want this voice in my head to stop justifying watching porn. I want to stop getting overpowered by urges. I want to be able to do what I did in January. I said " it stops here" and went 29 days clean. I just can't seem to do it anymore. I always pray to the LORD but I keep failing regardless. I keep letting him down
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I know exactly what you're talking about though....
 
K10 said:
Please help me...
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I know how you're feeling man, sometimes that voice screams louder than my actual thoughts.... Holding out hope and standing your ground is the best you can do sometimes, kick and scream back, spite the hell out of that voice :)
 
Do you workout, meditate, run/cardio, talk a walk in your park, take cold showers, hang out with friends (this one is optional btw), pray, go to church (this one too), talk about this problem with your best friend or any family member who you think can understand?

Nofap becomes easier when you get better at things I mentioned above. Nofap is more like a result of the new positive habits you develop over time. This is much easier said than done but those who are willing to give 100% will succeed no matter how difficult it may seem.
 
... highs and lows are the rule on our journey. It's very difficult sometimes, but it's just the way it works. you cannot think about suicide only because you relapsed: you just needed a relapse, because you are human. Of course, you feel very bad (shameful and defeated) after it happend, as as well you felt bad before, because your very veins and brain were so full of hormones and ... you couldn't help, you had do it. It's just the way an addition works, and no one will be ever able to break it in one day. Don't feel ashamed ore defeated, nor think of suicide: it's pointless. even though you masturbated ten times in a row, consider that tomorrow you will masturbate "only" nine times, and the day after only eight and so on. It's difficult to recover from a long bad habit, it takes a lot of time, self-discipline and plenty of patience towards yourself. So, go on and good luck ...
 
@K10, only just saw this post. Looks like things are a little better now, I'm glad to see.
HARP said:
If you struggle with suicidal feelings, for whatever reason, not just PMO, please click this link and speak to someone NOW. It honestly will get better when you talk about it, I promise.
http://suicidestop.com/call_a_hotline.html
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Keep this link handy, OK? And keep in touch with the community.
You got this.
 
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Awakening123 said:
Do you workout, meditate, run/cardio, talk a walk in your park, take cold showers, hang out with friends (this one is optional btw), pray, go to church (this one too), talk about this problem with your best friend or any family member who you think can understand?

Nofap becomes easier when you get better at things I mentioned above. Nofap is more like a result of the new positive habits you develop over time. This is much easier said than done but those who are willing to give 100% will succeed no matter how difficult it may seem.
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I do all that stuff. I am the most physically active person amongst my friends, I have a great group of friends I go hang out with, and I have best friends and family I can talk about my problems with.

I've been taking it upon myself to get out of the house when ever I start feeling urges (they spike when i'm doing work on my computer when i'm at home but don't happen when i'm in public as much lol)
 
Carl on Duty said:
I know how you're feeling man, sometimes that voice screams louder than my actual thoughts.... Holding out hope and standing your ground is the best you can do sometimes, kick and scream back, spite the hell out of that voice :)
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LOL I actually spent 20 min or 30 min taking a cold shower trying to fight it in my head and the neighbors called the police on me because they heard screaming and yelling. They weren't sure if I was okay or not but I went over to them and apologized and just told them it was school xD

It was a one time thing and I just needed to get it out of my system. It all starts with the mentality ahahah
 
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