Can masturbation kill brain cells with no recovery?

I need to stop this addiction of fapping but I don't know what to do... Every time I do it I feel total chaos inside me and I struggle to keep my pace the way it was before and all this effort makes me really anxious and with full of stress in order to recover as I was before the last time I fapped.. The problem is that later on I tend to forget things,I cannot concentrate, I cannot make a single thought with cohesion, coherence and comprehensively, I lose energy, I feel depressed and I feel really lonely at times because I don't want to talk to anybody because I believe that I will say or do stupid things... My fear is that with every ejaculation even in nocturnal ejaculation or wet dreams I kill many brain cells that cannot be recovered... Could you please explain to me, whether my fears are true or false and what to do to kill this addiction... I struggle to throw away this addiction and every time I lose this battle... I feel totally loser in every sense... This thing made me take wrong decisions in my life... And don't even have sexual life... I never had... Whenever I had something I always felt that way after sex.. I could not continue with my relationships... Please help me to overcome these demons, if there is a way, and explain to me, if you know, can masturbation create mental problems or brain diseases? Thank you in advance...

 

Dear friends, thank you so much for your replies... I feel much better because I have discovered that all these feelings I get from masturbation are not results of my imagination and that many people feel similar like I do... I feel that I can rely on to somebody... We all need to be supportive to each other and I am really glad that I 've finally found a page that can give specific advices by people who are more experienced than me... Perhaps my problem is that I haven't developed a plan and perhaps that's why my upper head succumbs to my lower head sooner or later... However, I 've managed to stay clean of any masturbation for 5 and a half months which was the longest ever... But my damn hand always wanted to touch myself and that's why it went out of control and I felt that all my efforts went down the drain and like there wasn't a day passed after all this time... Believe me I really try to rip off anything that reminds me my needs to have sex... I have to clean my attitude first but I really don't know how to do it anymore.. And, of course I am not referring to any kind of drug... Only with clean and effective means we could achieve something... How to built my confidence and especially how to persuade myself that if I don't keep thinking about sex, I won't be missing it... I really want to believe that life continues without sex or masturbation or any kind of masturbation... But if we don't masturbate on the other hand, does this create prostate cancer? Lack of education of any kind can lead to misunderstanding, confusion and frustration... What do you believe about all of those things?

 

Thank you...