can porn everyday for around a year and a half create gay thoughts when they weren’t there before.

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  1. 831G

    831G Fapstronaut

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    Hey I’m 15 guess a little weird to be on this forum but I’m kinda confused for about 3 weeks to a month now.
    I’ve always watched straight porn just pretty normal stuff I started watching maybe summer going into highschool.
    After a couple months I discovered I liked sort of kinky stuff like watching girls to crazy anal things and such and about maybe last year I had no urge to jerk off for about a week until I made myself do it to get out of my funk. So about summer rolls around and I’m in a hotel for vacation and I notice when I go into the bathroom to start watching porn I can not get hard or at least at hard as I normally can. But I remember the video being pretty hot yet very normal and straight. So I couldn’t get hard for another day or two so I stopped for a couple days then went back to it. After that it started happening more frequently maybe once a month I couldn’t get hard for around 3 days to a week. So I would always start to watch kinkier and kinkier stuff to get my erection. This went on from summer to halfway through sophomore year( sophomore year is current to me right now) Today I can barely any stimulation at all without touching my penis, I can tell that the women in the videos are really hot but can’t get hard. So it’s been maybe a week and I start to wonder if I’m gay, I have always liked women and have always been very turned on by them, I have gone so far as multiple times while jerking off watching porn thinking to myself I can’t be gay cuz this is so great I love it. but I tested myself with gay porn and didn’t get much out of it except at the end a tiny rise of my penis barely any but it freaked me out so bad. Anyway fast forward like 2 weeks to present time and I’ve thought that I’m bi for a little bit then I think of what being bi really means and it kinda weirds me out. I watched gay porn again and didn’t eat hard at all then I did again maybe a week after that and noticed my penis get a tiny bit hard then I Ended up jerking off to a gif of a penis because I got a little more than halfway hard and I was so confused. Can anyone relate or tell their story please I’m in a terrible headspace and it is really fucking me up right now and by the way I’ve been smoking pot for a while now but I really don’t think this has any effect but I’m gonna try the NoFap thing for at least 40 days
     
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  2. Hi and welcome.
    You've learned your system what you "like".
    From soft to kinky, from kinky to trans, from trans to gay porn.
    The problem is that we are intended to believe what we feel. Think about that.
    But what you feel is not who you are.

    Quit porn completely, start talking to others here en learn how the brain works.
    Lots of information in my journal.

    Good luck.
     
  3. Former_CD

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    Welcome, stopping PMO will be the best decision you can ever make. I promise it will make your life better. Here is a link to my journal with the plan I used to overcome porn and other addictions. I believe that it is a good starting point and my plan will help you to develope your own plan.

    https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/no-cross-dressing-re-boot-journal.87827/

    I will echo what @Roady said. Stop watching porn and jacking off and the erectile dysfunction will go away. If you stop for 40 days and then start watching again then the ED will return. You are not gay. You are desensitized to porn.
     
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  4. determined_new_life

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    Best of luck, this is a good read, how porn effects the brain https://fightthenewdrug.org/how-porn-changes-the-brain/
     
  5. 831G

    831G Fapstronaut

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    Thankyou
     
  6. aussieguy

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    Welcome - I agree with the posters above, it's not you man.
    but getting off the porn drug is tough, and difficult, and painful...

    if you need help you can find it here, but be careful to stay in the middle of the group there are lots of really authentic people who will help. At the edges there will be people who are not so honest and not really here to quit.

    good luck!
     
  7. If you are willing and able to abstain from PMO for a certain amount of time to let your brain reboot you can discover who you really are with a clean mind. Good luck bro and don’t be afraid of who you are there is nothing wrong with being bi, gay or straight!!
     
  8. 831G

    831G Fapstronaut

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    Appreciate it thankyou
     
  9. Bremner's

    Bremner's Fapstronaut

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    Porn is like a meal. One variety will never satisfy us so we try a different kind just to satisfy our cravings. All I recommend is to quit porn once and for all to completely stop these cravings.

    I also get that you're 15 and that at this age, you are a horny teenager with uncontrollable urges. However, I also want to warn you that PMO is destructive, especially if used too much. I do not want to tell you to limit your usage because this is akin to telling a recovering drug addict to use cocaine once a month instead of giving it up altogether.

    You can do this!! I trust you! :)
     
  10. 831G

    831G Fapstronaut

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    Thanks bre
     
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  11. Exponential Power

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    You're not gay. You're experiencing typical effects of an escalating porn addiction. Give up porn forever. Don't let it hurt you anymore. You've come to the right place.
     

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