Almost two years ago I started my NoFap journey. Being in a relationship made it tough to go hard mode, so I decided to stick to no PM. Ever since then, I have been successful in the no M part, but I have watched P or P-subs on different occasions. After all this time, I'm starting to wonder if the no PM is being of help for me, for the reasons I list down below. 1. My primary goal starting the no PM was to check how it would affect my premature ejaculation issue. Since I started, I have had some ups and downs in this regard. Immediately I had a sudden improvement, had the best sex with my girlfriend I had ever had. Then it went worse, and nowadays I could say it's worse than ever. In my particular experience, I think stopping P and M has not influenced my PE problem, since it's been randomly happening and I have not been able to find a pattern. 2. One of the main problems for addicts is the lack of attraction to their partners or even to real women. This has never been the case with me; I desire my girlfriend, always have, doing PMO, not doing it, after 1 day of intercourse or after 50 days. I crave her so much that doing PMO wouldn't affect my attraction towards her. 3. My girlfriend doesn't care if I watch porn or masturbate. She sees it as something normal (though she doesn't use it) and definitely it's not cheating for her. After all this time on this forum and the NoFap community, I have started to see how watching P and masturbating to it can be perceived as cheating, but she couldn't care less when I told her I wasn't going to watch any more P or M. She even saw it as a weird thing to do. 4. After more than 4 years of relationship, the sexual encounters have become more and more scarce. I don't know what's gone wrong, maybe it's the routine, the living together, the stress of our lives and jobs, that she doesn't see me as attractive as before (the no novelty issue) or whatever other reason, but it's like sex wasn't on the table to start with. What before was maybe once or twice a month, now can go over 40-50 days of no sex of any kind. I let her know almost everyday how attracted I am to her, how much I desire her, if I feel like doing something... No success. Other times I've tried to not being after her, expecting her to come after me... No success. And I've grown tired of this, I'm starting to perceive myself as a bit annoying for insisting so much with no success. And that's not mentioning the lack of confidence after being rejected by my girlfriend time after time. 5. By not masturbating I completely depend on her for sexual relieve, and considering how much I crave sexual contact and how little I get it, it's really being tough for me. Having sexual release by myself would allow me to not depend on her on this matter. Everything in our relationship is great, we love each other deeply, and we're getting married soon. But the sex part is toughly not enough for me (not a deal breaker anyway). At this point, besides the waste of time that PMOing is, I don't see true reasons to not doing it. I would like to hear from you to disuade me from this notion.