i've had gay sex n i cant accept it. i had a crappy childhood n there was pmo addiction. was in therapy for year n half. have some clarity over it, but i cant accept that i've had gay stuff. its killing me inside. wish the childhood was different. therapist is in other city n will have to find another one. but i cant live with this fact that i've had gay stuff. it makes me feel like i'm still a slave of my shitty childhood. n how he ruined my mind. please this is not an offense to the gay community. but it feels like my abuser is laughing at me.