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I've started an account here maybe about a month ago and still keep relapsing. I don't even think I've made it to a week without going back to those sites.
For me, these places are much more addictive than porn, especially the one with the initials CS. Everyone's profile is festooned with pornographic images of themselves and others, and the tantalising prospect of getting in contact with someone will keep me hooked for hours and hours, waiting to see if someone will reply to my message etc, and when I do start talking to someone it's very hard to cut that off, and if I do, I feel guilty about ghosting etc.
It's become such a deeply ingrained pattern. I'll relapse, make profiles on these sites, spend maybe about 4 nights in a row where I hardly sleep at all, because I'm up all night talking about being becoming a slave to someone in a far off country, sometimes I get to the point of seriously considering going through with something, then it will all get too much- I'll delete the profile and ghost. Spend a few days off the site, then start again with a new profile.
Please, does anyone have any advice at all? I'm constantly haggard from not sleeping and can't do anything my life, because the moment I get a little freetime, it gets entirely eaten up by cruising online for someone to abuse me or humiliate me.
For me, these places are much more addictive than porn, especially the one with the initials CS. Everyone's profile is festooned with pornographic images of themselves and others, and the tantalising prospect of getting in contact with someone will keep me hooked for hours and hours, waiting to see if someone will reply to my message etc, and when I do start talking to someone it's very hard to cut that off, and if I do, I feel guilty about ghosting etc.
It's become such a deeply ingrained pattern. I'll relapse, make profiles on these sites, spend maybe about 4 nights in a row where I hardly sleep at all, because I'm up all night talking about being becoming a slave to someone in a far off country, sometimes I get to the point of seriously considering going through with something, then it will all get too much- I'll delete the profile and ghost. Spend a few days off the site, then start again with a new profile.
Please, does anyone have any advice at all? I'm constantly haggard from not sleeping and can't do anything my life, because the moment I get a little freetime, it gets entirely eaten up by cruising online for someone to abuse me or humiliate me.