Hi! My story real quick. When I was 13 I got addicted to porn and masturbated around 4-5 times a week. It was because of stressful situation at home. My dad is an alcohol addict and used to scream a lot. I couldn't last longer than a week without masturbation. Then I went to Uni and it didn't get much better. Until last May when I started to work as a waiter. At that time I was 20. Magically I stopped to masturbate but my libido went so low that I wasn't interested sexually in anything. Through the rest of the year I masturbated few times to check if l can get a boner. So every time I tried it was really hard without porn. Just to fantasies and photos of real hot girls I knew. It took me around 20-30 minutes and wasn't very satisfying. I tried once to porn and it was an instant boner. Then thoughout October to February I was in a distant relationship. We tried to have sex few times but I couldn't get it hard, even though the girl was soooo hot and she really liked to have sex. Then I ended that relationship. I got close to few girls later but didn't feel aroused at all. I started to doubt my sexuality. Now it's April. I tried to masturbate few times just for fun but it wasn't really that good. I just got tired. Tonight my friend came to me. I didn't know her intentions but all I did was to tell her how badly I feel about myself and hugged her a lot. I don't really know if she wanted to have sex with me because she has got a boyfriend. I hit the gym in January and changed my diet for better. It takes so long. I don't know what to do. I really would like to have satisfying sex experience. Meeting with girls is so stressful. Any ideas how to get out of this shitty situation?