Can't Get Over Her...

So, I guess you could say I was in an unnoficial relationship with a girl from May-July.

Here's the story:

So, I was at Prom. I didn't have a date, so I just went with a big group of friends. Me and this girl both danced with each other for the first dance (A slow dance).

We danced a couple of more times that night, and then, without me asking, this girl, Rose, handed over her number. A couple of days later we were texting, and she told me that I should call her. So, basically for like two months, we talked on the phone every night. It turns out she lived far away from me ('bout two hours), so we never really got to see each other.

Not too long after, she invites me to her graduation ceremony. Said we could go out after and everything. She said she wanted to introduce me to her family, and stuff.

When I got to the graduation, it was a little awkward. I honestly had I better time talking to her family and her friends than to her. Both of us were a little nervous, me especially, so that made things seem unnatural. She was weird, cuz I was weird... weird night.

A few nights later, over the phone I apologized for being nervous being around her and her family. She said it was fine, and told me that they all liked you. Then we both told each other how much we liked each other.

About a week or more later, we were on the phone (AGAIN), and she was talking about how we'd make it work after she leaves for college (Going to school 1,500 miles away), and how she wanted to start up a long term relationship. My response went something like, "I dont know, I think you should live your life at college and not worry about me." Something like that. She responded basically saying that I didn't have to worry about that, blah, blah, blah.

So, a couple of days later she sends me two very long texts saying about how she changes her mind, she's not ready for a romantic relationship. I responded with, "Yeah, that's fine I understand." So, it's what I wanted, but I felt so stupid after it came true. I miss her.

I still think about Rose a lot, even though it's been a few months. I think about how stupid the little family date went after her graduation, and how I wish I could do it over more confident. I think about how I miss our little talks at night, and how we would both make a wish at night before hanging up about getting together, or whatever. Stupid, I know.

What do I do? I don't want to think about her so much anymore!

~Squeaky Soul

 

Thanks Noobranaut!

Exactly what I need to hear.

~Squeaky Soul