Hi everyone, It's been five weeks that I relapse every time the same day of the week. Each Friday evening, I relapse before sleeping. it's uncontrollable. It's pretty easy to resist on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday but I fail on Friday. Also, I binge on Saturday and maybe Sunday then I restart the loop. My weekend is pretty destroyed in this case. I think that I fail on Friday evening because I feel really lonely and I can't tell to myself that I will meet girls the next day at college so it's not a big deal if I masturbate. All the week, I see INCREDIBLY beautiful girls and I tell myself that I am not enough good for them so on friday night I release on masturbation all the pressure accumulated during the week. It's really frustrating to fail at day 5. All the week I feel really happy because of Nofap and I tell myself that it's IMPOSSIBLE to come back to that hell, that I am not enough stupid to destroy the streak, but its false. This addiction is really draining a lot of time and energy, it makes thing really harder for nothing. Why does this bullshit (porn) exist?????? The worst part of it is that it does not give me pleasure! I feel nothing during orgasm! Its like my brain decided to launch its own destruction. I struggle against my own temptations since years with no success. Every time I have two choices. A fast 'pleasure' with a harder life or doing something else that does not give this 'pleasure' but an amazing life after. I always choose the first one..If you have any advice, it would be really appreciated or if you just feel the same thing, feel free to comment.