I keep thinking about the conversation my SO and I had the other night. I was happy he opened up, but there are just some things I can't get out of my mind. It's like I'm torn. A big part of me is understanding about his feelings and actions because I understand P&M addiction, but the other part of me is still greatly hurt and offended. He told me that he does look at other women often, and sometimes stares for long periods. I know he's thinking about something sexual. The fact that he's objectifying so many women in RL is especially nauseating and difficult for me to accept. Our relationship has been so tough, and had ups and downs as everyones has, but I've always felt like he was distant, and didn't desire the closeness and intimacy as I have. I know a lot of this is because of his Add. but this all feels like my worst fears are materializing. I'm sick of hearing the excuse that this is normal and every guy does it, because that isn't, and they need to be held accountable. I held him to a higher standard, and I'm realizing that he's doing the same thing as so many others, just in a sneakier way. It makes me not want to be near him, or even be with him. I love him and I want to support him, but I don't trust him. The lies and deceit make it so hard to move forward. We are basically going to have to start over. I've decided to not see him for a few weeks until I know there's progress being made. How will I know? How can I know he's making progress and not doing these awful things? I made it clear that this needs to happen for me to stay, but that more importantly he needs to change for himself. I don't know what signs and markers I should see if any. I don't know how to move forward from this place.