Olly91
Fapstronaut
I lied to my girlfriend again.
A bit of context first. My relationship is relatively new. 4 months. She lives in Madrid. I am in the UK. Long distance. She is Christian, and I am new to exploring the faith. I am trying to do this for myself and separate my spiritual journey from doing it because of her, but that is a different story. She is a virgin. I am not.
I started this NoFap journey because I wanted to reset myself for her, and to be a better person. I want to be a better person for myself.
It is a struggle though. I have sexual relations with my gf when we are together, without sex and it's amazing. I really feel like I want to wait for her. Like I want to reboot and devote myself to her.
I'm on day 17 I think. I last saw her about day 13. It's been tough being on my own since then, and despite not fapping I've been feeling sexually frustrated.
I went on holiday to Dublin at the weekend without her, and there were plenty of girls about. Of course I didn't interact with any, BUT I couldn't stop oggling. I'm not sure whether I found each more attractive than usual, due to my reset, or because I am frustrated. But I had sexual thoughts about almost every girl I saw.
I really want to reboot for my gf. To devote myself to her, and not be tempted by anyone else. But because of her religion, which I respect, and actually regard as probably the right way to go about things, sex won't be happening any time soon. I think this is why I couldn't stop looking at the other girls!
In conversation my gf asked me if I looked at any another girls. I told her no. I lied.
I thought my NoFap journey was going well, but I'm not sure now. Am I just winding myself up, ready to blow? I feel a huge urge, and I am wondering should I release when skyping with my girl, to relieve some of the tension.
Wow this is hard.
A bit of context first. My relationship is relatively new. 4 months. She lives in Madrid. I am in the UK. Long distance. She is Christian, and I am new to exploring the faith. I am trying to do this for myself and separate my spiritual journey from doing it because of her, but that is a different story. She is a virgin. I am not.
I started this NoFap journey because I wanted to reset myself for her, and to be a better person. I want to be a better person for myself.
It is a struggle though. I have sexual relations with my gf when we are together, without sex and it's amazing. I really feel like I want to wait for her. Like I want to reboot and devote myself to her.
I'm on day 17 I think. I last saw her about day 13. It's been tough being on my own since then, and despite not fapping I've been feeling sexually frustrated.
I went on holiday to Dublin at the weekend without her, and there were plenty of girls about. Of course I didn't interact with any, BUT I couldn't stop oggling. I'm not sure whether I found each more attractive than usual, due to my reset, or because I am frustrated. But I had sexual thoughts about almost every girl I saw.
I really want to reboot for my gf. To devote myself to her, and not be tempted by anyone else. But because of her religion, which I respect, and actually regard as probably the right way to go about things, sex won't be happening any time soon. I think this is why I couldn't stop looking at the other girls!
In conversation my gf asked me if I looked at any another girls. I told her no. I lied.
I thought my NoFap journey was going well, but I'm not sure now. Am I just winding myself up, ready to blow? I feel a huge urge, and I am wondering should I release when skyping with my girl, to relieve some of the tension.
Wow this is hard.