Catfight Fetish Addiction

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  1. AlphaMode

    AlphaMode Fapstronaut

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    Hello, I am new to this community, 21 years old male and addicted to catfight fetish. Here's how my journey of this addiction started.
    At the age of 10-12 i used to enjoy watching WWE Women's matches. Never had access to internet at this age.
    At the for 13 I started reading catfight stories on internet. Started fantasizing catfight between my female friends.
    Then at the age of 14-15, i started watching some mild catfight videos on internet. I rarely used to watch regular porn. ( 90% catfight, 10% regular porn)
    This continued for 3 years. Not heavy usage, some few times in a month.
    At the age of 18 i started masturbating. First i masturbated on girls i used to like, fantasizing about normal sex. Then i started masturbating on my catfight fantasy, but i never used to watch videos while masturbating. I used my imagination. At the age of 19 i noticed that, I can't get hard and ejaculate without thinking of catfight, regular sex was uninteresting. For 1.5 years i watched extreme catfight videos and tribbing videos.
    At age 20, i found about nofap, did a 110 days nofap successfully, but then again hooked on catfight porn.
    I did nofap again for 60 days but would relapse on catfight fetish.
    Three months ago i had my first sex, but i couldn't get hard with thinking of catfight while having sex, i was unable to penetrate her. (Is it PIED ?)
    This made my confidence low, and made me suffer from HOCD. After this i did nofap for 42 days, i decided relapse to masturbate by imaging regular sex. I can sometimes get hard, sometimes not. Still not sure whether i can get hard during sex. I have been single my whole life, the sex was one time thing. I observed that, my penis won't get hard during kissing and foreplay with a girl, i need to stimulate my penis to get hard.
    I decided to start NoFap Hardmode, currently on day 6. Whenever i see a hot girl, instead of thinking about having sex with her, i compare her with different girls and imagine catfight and who will win the catfight between them. How can i change this thinking? I am bit frustrated. Also i need to ask something, Is catfight an extreme fetish ? How severe my condition is ? For how many days should i do NoFap, to get hard during kissing and foreplay ? Also will my HOCD go after 90 days reboot ?
    Can someone provide my nofap timeline for HOCD ?
     
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  2. Hello and welcome! :)

    We are glad to have you as a part of our community. Here are some quick links to get you started.

    Getting Started Guide | How to Use the NoFap Forums | Panic Button | Day Counter | Rebooting Resources | Forum Rules | Glossary

    If you wish to keep a journal of your progress you can do so in the appropriate section found here

    You can also take part in one of the many challenges available. It can be a tremendous help. Challenges

    Also, there are groups you can also join if you wish to do so. You can browse through them here. Groups

    There are plenty of wonderful, friendly and knowledgeable people here to help you along on your journey to a life free of PMO. I wish you nothing but the best!
     
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  3. AlphaMode

    AlphaMode Fapstronaut

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    Thank you, can you answer above questions written in for post me ?
     
  4. PaulPaul

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    Hey AlphaMode, I'm no expert on fetishes but I know a bit about beating a pmo addiction from experience. So here are a few yellow bricks.

    First of all: relax. Take a deep breath. Don't panic. Let all that guilt, shame, negativity and anxiety wash away. Maybe a bit of meditation or mindfulness helps to clear you mind.

    Beating a sex addiction takes a long time. Looking back on my 500 day detox I see it went down in fases. First it was physical (hormonal?), then about willpower, then about relationship, then about my past, then about how I see myself .. it's a path. Different for every person. Never the same and the goals differ too. But it takes a long time. It is a transitional fase in your life. So set looooong goals. And enjoy the ride by rewarding yourself.
    I'm not finished with my pmo addiction too. Some fases done, but still some way to go.

    There are therapies to beat fetishes but they are controversial. Basically you try to associate good feelings with good sexual experiences, and bad feelings with the fetish. Will it work? I don't know, I think it is a bit technical and cold hearted. My preferred approach would be through love. If you love a person and your fetish is hurting them, you will be internally motivated to let go of that fetish. It will take time and a lot of patience but it can be done. It's a huge cliché and I feel like a Disney princess singing out loud, but 'love conquers all'. Or al least, many things. Love is powerful stuff.

    Is your catfight fetish extreme? Does 'extreme' mean bizar or weird or rare? I think that is not important. However, I would be worried if it is the actual pain, violence and blood that turns you on. Then it's fuel for crime. Don't go that path.

    Should you expect the fetish to go away? Maybe, but don't feel bad if the temptation stays. As long as it no longer has complete control over your live. YOU need to be in control.

    About HOCD, is the 'H' a question? When in doubt, check it out.

    I hope this helps you on your journey.
     
  5. AlphaMode

    AlphaMode Fapstronaut

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    Thank you brother for your support.
    And i want to get rid of that fetish
    No i am not in doubt, i know i am straight but sometimes my hocd triggers.
     
  6. Well, I have been suffering from hocd for a while, and u should join a special hocd forum or a support group cuz most people here are not familiar with hocd, btw what kind of thoughts u got now? Mine is severe cuz I get thoughts 24/7 and Im not really disgusted by them(
     
  7. Checking is a compulsion which makes the ocd worse
     
  8. Strength And Light

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    Hi @AlphaMode. :) Welcome to the community.

    Do everything you can to not watch any type of porn for awhile. 90 days is a good goal to aim for. Most people also avoid masturbating during this time of rebooting the brain from the escalations of porn abuse. Just getting away from porn and masturbation for a decent length of time will help your brain heal and help answer a lot that you are concerned about. Reboot is real and I am a good example. There are many, many others who have healed.

    We all have different sorts of twists and turns in our story about how we got into porn, and we're all a little different about what our "taste" escalated to. As an outside observer, I might recommend thinking about what your beliefs are about yourself, specifically about your masculinity or toughness. If you have negative self-images (thoughts and feelings) about being unmasculine "enough" or about not being tough "enough", you may be trying to solve these negative self-images by "getting" the toughest girl. As though landing the toughest girl somehow proves you are masculine and tough, which would eliminate your insecurity about this. The problem with this approach though, is that you can't eliminate low SELF-images through outside sources. You can try to change how other people see you and perceive you by getting the toughest girlfriend, but it will have little to no effect on your own SELF-image. What I'd suggest instead is to try to understand that who you are is completely whole, loveable, and acceptable without having the toughest girl. I know you have gall because you came here to NoFap and opened up. That's tough and a lot of guys are too scared to even try.

    Anyway, I'm glad you're here and I wish you luck with recovery!
     
  9. AlphaMode

    AlphaMode Fapstronaut

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    Not severe thought some few thoughts in week. Mostly, just by seeings some boys, my hocd triggers, questions like am i attracted to him and sometimes sexual images.
     
  10. AlphaMode

    AlphaMode Fapstronaut

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    Yes, i am going to aim for nofap reboot.
    No I don't have negative self image. I am sick of this catfight fantasy
     
  11. BigCatTunski

    BigCatTunski Fapstronaut

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    Hey AlphaMode,

    there’s a lot of good advice in here that’ll help you on your journey. One thing that’s helping me on my journey is learning about the perils of P and why I should stay away from it. Educating yourself on such things will help you more about yourself and how P can negatively affect you. The world is yours. Do great things with it.
     
  12. AlphaMode

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    Thank you brother
     

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