Catholic / Orthodox Fapstronauts

Dear brothers in faith,

I have to make a shameful confession. Sadly, my streak has ended today, on day 78. I was in hardmode for 11 weeks.

It was intended that i was alone at home this weekend and this fact triggered the notion"PMO-primetime" in my brain, like it was previously in my life. Fact is, I was not even alone at home, because my brother dropped by. Although I was like under current, hormones were wrecking havock. Even the weekend is over now, I still was in this state today. There were periodes when I could put the fantasiziny away very well and then they came back and so on.
Yesterday was a really prayersome day for me, I had nothing to do and spent the day praying, listening to mass, lectio divina ect.
Today the thoughts came back and I O´ed without watching something dirty, or touching my penis. A bit like a wet dream, the O was very short but due to the amont of sperm, it was a full bown O, it did not bring any satisfaction. I was just speechless.

A couple of hours later i experienced a full PMO-relapse, checking out what i missed the last 11 weeks. It was short, but effective.
Afterwards it was so clear again, why I decided to quit this shit forever and I felt very disguisted by it, it is not nearly as appealing as I imagined.

I am writing this to warn you, the temptations and urges can appear any time and in any situation and even after a very long streak there is no guaranty that you cannot relapse.
I just hope I am stable again and won´t fall back in a state of binging again. I am a perfectionist, so it is all or nothing and this relapse really hurt.
Compared to previous times, 2 Os in 11 weeks is like nothing, but although, a relapse is a relapse. I have improved my mindset and life in general in so many aspects during this time, getting rid of many other useless and sinful habits and really evolve as a personality and on my spiritual journey. So I just hope this won´t be all in vain.

I am trying to be honest on a brutal way and yes, it is very disgusting, but I hope others can learn from my mistakes.

I am asking for you prayer and hope you keep fighting this plague.


Have mercy on me, God, in your goodness
in your abundant compassion
blot out my offense.
Wash away all my guilt;
from my sin cleanse me...

 

Thank you for sharing! It's certainly an act of humility, and God loves humility! Remember to go to confession right away if you haven't yet.

 

Welcome! By minister, do you mean you are a priest, or are you using it in a different way? Just curious. Glad to have you here, whichever way.

 

Who's watching the Canonization Mass tonight/tomorrow? My research shows it's 1:30 am Pacific Time/4:30 am Eastern Time/8:30 am GMT. If my info is off, someone please post correction.

Streams:

Salt + Light TV: http://saltandlighttv.org/specialcoverage/mother-teresa

EWTN (click "Watch Live" link in right sidebar): http://www.ewtn.com/tv/index.asp#381-333975

Vatican TV Live Stream via YouTube:

If you have others, post below!

 

i might actually watch it

 

Fear is such a powerful emotion for humans that when we allow it to take us over, it drives compassion right out of our hearts.

-St Thomas Aquinas

 

Hi, I'm a 20 year old male living in Australia. I've been trying to beat this on my own but I realised that isn't possible. I know I need to find accountability. If anyone can help me with this, that would be a blessing.

 

MOAR ROSARY!!!!

 

Hey guys,
Does anyone want to start a Catholic/Orthodox group, now that the option is there? Just wondering if anyone would like it better, or thinks it be more active or helpful?

 

Moar? More? I'm saying a decade daily but I can up it. It's the least I can do.

Isn't this a group already?

 

MOOOOAAAR!!!!

There's a Christian group, but not a Catholic and/or Orthodox one specifically, which we could have in addition to the Christian group, if people were interested in it.

 

I'd definitely be interested in starting an Orthodox (or a Catholic/Orthodox group), as along as theological differences are acknowledged and respected through a larger lens of brotherly love of course!

 

Just watched this film, was wondering what the Catholic locals here have to say about it? Pure curiosity......



http://www.ncregister.com/daily-news/mostly-positive-catholic-response-to-spotlight

Also this song had me thinking of some of your clergy members lately:



Have a good day! Rhetorical question sorry for asking.

May all you Orthodox Catholics have a splendid reboot here!

 

I realise you said this was a rhetorical question. You could call this a rhetorical reply.
What do you think of Joann Wypijewski's and Gordon MacRae's commentaries (cf. his blog) on Spotlight?.

 

I'm a 38 years old man, catholic, who's been addicted to masturbation and porn for many years (more than 20 years now). It escalated to the point that there's hardly a day that I don't masturbate and/or see internet porn. In the last 10 years, I became addicted to the internet and with that, virtual sex / sexting also became an issue. In the beginning I'd look for single women, but then I started to deliberately seek married women online for cybersex and then masturbate after these talks. I think now, I'm more addicted to the thrill and adrenaline I get from trying to conquer and flirt married women and lead them to these conversations, then porn or masturbation. In these talks I pass myself as an attractive fit man, using a fake identity and photos and lying about me.

During these years I tried to have serious relationships, but after a while I always got bored and fed up with the girls I dated, once I take them for granted. The same happened with this girl I've been dating: she is the only girl to whom I confessed this problem and we parted several times because I keep procrastinating about finding help and address this problem. When we part, I miss her very much, and I want to fight this battle for her, but then when we get back together I take her for granted, get bored and don't anything to quit this vicious cycle. In the last days separeted again and I think this time is for good.

Right now I'm in a very deep hole, but because I don't know what to do. I want to be pure and overcome this addictions, but I feel that there's no hope for me. The shame and the loneliness makes it very hard for me to find an accountability partner and a spiritual director to whom I have the courage to confess my problem.
I don't know what to do to address all these problems. Can you help me and pray for me?

 

Brothers and sisters, I ask for your prayers please. I am very unwell in hospital currently and cannot get to Mass today. Please take me with you to yours. I also need to make a Confession urgently, as I may be having surgery in the coming days, but I haven't the courage at present. Feeling low, low, low, and failing...

Thank you. I offer what suffering I am in for all of you.

 

Hey guys. This is a cool thread. I'm a 21 year old Catholic female and I've been addicted to porn since I was 14. It's always separated me from God. I also am in a committed relationship and we're sexually active. I found that since I started having sex, my relationship with God is so strained because I just feel like he can't look past my sinning.. does anyone have any advice? I still go to mass every week but whenever I try to improve my prayer life, I can't keep it up because I think "well I'm going to hell anyway because of all the porn I watch and all the premarital sex I have." I guess the strictness of the whole mortal sin thing gets to me. Does anyone else have similar thinking?

 

Hey everyone this is my first day as a member of the community and I am reluctantly enthusiastic about joining. I only feel this way because I've tried many methods of trying to kick the PMO habit. Rebooting is tough for me because I don't have anyone around me who can help. But God is good. This morning after relapsing yet again, he reminded me that this website existed. So here I am. Keep me in your prayers and I will pray for you.

 

Hi Patty,

Keeping every one of the ten commandments is extremely important. This includes the sixth commandment: "Thou shalt not commit adultery." Porn, masturbation, and extramarital/premarital sex are forbidden, and there is a very good reason for all this. Not only do these acts offend God, but they hurt ourselves and others. (Even though it might not be apparent in the short term.)

The same thing applies to any disobedience to God's law. Not only does one offend God, but one loses the benefits of obeying. For example, if a child eats a bunch of candy even though his mother told him not to, then not only does he reject his mother's authority, but he puts himself at risk of getting sick, thereby hurting himself. Furthermore, it isn't always just ourselves we hurt by breaking commandments. Often, we hurt others, which is even worse.

It may be difficult, but if you want not only yourself, but also the person with whom you are sinning to be saved, and to be happy in the long run, then you must stop breaking the sixth commandment. Remember that sex is supposed to be a unitive act, between a married man and woman, and open to having children.

Try to find a good priest to go to confession to, as he can give you advice as well. Your concerns about your sin are not unfounded. Your conscience is trying to tell you something, and it is always a good idea to listen to one's conscience.

It's good to hear that you go to mass. A lot of "catholics" nowadays don't even do that much. Of course, just because others become lax concerning their faith does not mean that's an OK thing to do. I highly recommend praying the rosary every day as well, both for your own intentions and for others.

God bless.

 

Confession.