So it all started in December 2018 when I was diagonosed with left sided varicocele and got really depressed. In March 2019 I noticed that my erection got weaker and when I stand up it goes away in seconds. I couldnt remeber the last time i had morning wood (thought its a myth). In April I decided to try NoFap in order to lift my mind and get better erections. A lot of relapses... After 1-2 weeks abstinence i got my first morning erection but they werent full (Im a perfectionist) so i decided to get more serious. Still losing erection when standing up...only get them when i lie on my back. That was the time I started to search my symptoms online and found about VENOUS LEAK - a huge mistake. NEVER GOOGLE YOUR SYMPTOMS NO MATTER WHAT PART OF BODY IT IS - IT IS A TRAP So i fell in the trap of thinking i have venous leak for months. Weak erections, flaccid head, position depended ED, losing with no manual stimulation...even watching porn couldnt get me up. I dont get sponatneous erections except weak morning wood for months. In July after a 47 day streak i relapsed due to spermogram and following varicocele surgery. At that time i get morning erections OFTEN but they arent maximum strong. I started my second serious streak in July and at 35 day i get my first maximal 100% erection sitting on my bed by chatting with a girl online - thats some progress finally. I get great morning erections and very strong ones by talking to girls and chatting but still no spontaneous and soft erections when standing on my legs. Everybody says that having morning wood means no erectile problems but I was still in the fear of venous leak. In the end of August, one night i was looking at a pic of a girl and got really hard. I decided to get on my knees and check my erection in that position - it remained with no physical stimulation. At that moment I got up and standed still for some time but it kept full with NO touching. THAT WAS THE MAGICAL MOMENT FOR ME WHEN I REALISED I HAD NO VENOUS LEAK FOR SURE ! AFTER 2 ATTEMPTS OF NOFAP FOR 45 DAYS - NOW I WAS SURE. Early in September i relapsed due to fears of correlation between abstinence and prostate health but thats another story I will go for 90 days now I hope... SO TO SUM IT UP...MY ADVICE FOR YOU IF YOU FEAR THAT YOU HAVE VENOUS LEAK IS : 1. DONT SEARCH OR LOOK FOR IT IN GOOGLE - ITS VERY SCARY INFORMATION AND WILL SURELY GET YOU DEPRESSED. IT GOT ME FOR ABOUT 5 MONTHS. 2. THERE IS NO LINK BETWEEN VENOUS LEAK AND VARICOCELE, VEINS ON PENIS SKIN, MONDORS DISEASE AND HEMOROIDS (some guy on a forum posted that if u have varicocele and hemoroids + veins on legs(i have them all) you have 100% venous leak- this is bullshit) 3. MOST IMPORTANT - IF YOUR MORNING WOOD GETS BACK THEN YOU DONT HAVE VENOUS LEAK REMEMBER THAT !!!! YOU HAVE PIED 4. PIED SYMPTOMS ARE SAME WITH VENOUS LEAK 5. YOU ARE BORN WITH LEAK EXCEPT YOU GET IN A CAR CRASH WITH A HUGE HIT IN GROIN WHICH LEADS TO EMERGENCY ROOM In conclusion - this society really saved my life (i was seriously suicidal). I dont have words to describe the way I feel after the journey - it really helps mind and body and deserves to try. I want to thank everyone here u guys really lift me up. This is the first time I post here and the goal of this article is to help everybody who challenges the fear of having venous leak and to proove that YOU DONT HAVE IT. All you need to do is to give yourself some time and enjoy the results. THANK YOU !!!