oke guys, so how do you experience Christmas? For me it’s like the loneliest period. I’ve celebrated with my father on the 25th and my mother the 26th but it still feels stupid. My grandparents all passed away. I don’t have brothers nor sisters. I’m not a father yet and my father has no lady at this moment. First Christmas Day felt like a normal visit without anything special. Yes there was a tree and we both gave a present to one another. Still there was nobody else. I could only think about how it will be in the future when he passes away. There will be nobody left. I just can’t stand that life is about a certain pace and that everybody needs to adapt to society's borders. I don’t know if i like this world enough to put children on it, it seems to me like a very hard place. I’m getting sick of everybody using their phone all the time, with headphones on/in their ears and ‘zombie mode’ to the next appointment, people in the gym doing ‘leg press’ while they app during the ‘set’. You cannot talk to lots of people, they are all on their way to their next deadline, or totally in their own world of social media. The only thing I’m trying to say is; when you want to make new friends, and for real, it’s very difficult. When friends from high school are out of sight and the rest is very busy just like me and you don’t have a relationship and your own family is like two people, how the hell can you have a good time. I’m going to different places, but making real friends is very hard these days. Or do I have a wrong interpretation of ‘friends’, I don’t like to call people that I only know for a short period, or that have a totally different mentality ‘friends’. The world is so fast these days that my way of connecting with people is too slow. When I’m new to a social club or whatever it always takes time for me to adapt and they don’t give you the time, their so freaking judge mental as if something is wrong with you. I’m just an ADD personality that has struggle with big groups of people, but they don’t quite understand that. It feels lonely. I hope I can meet a lady that understands that I’m a beautiful soul and a real good and funny, good looking guy, I only need some time.