Chronic Cyber Sex Addiction

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Earl Sweatpants, May 23, 2020.

  1. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    Hi, Fellow Nofap peers! I hope you're all doing well! I am an 18 year old male and for the past two years I have had a chronic sexual addiction that is eating away at many aspects of my life.

    This initially started with internet porn, and then moved on to webcam porn. At 17 I became addicted to webcam model sites (Imlive, chaturbate etc). I would often waste hour upon hour just watching these models do sexy things on the public broadcast.
    Although I got such an incredible high from doing this, after ejaculating a feeling of emptiness and shame would strike me.

    A few months down the track, I discovered sites like Omegle and Chatroulette, where you could instantly match with anyone worldwide on webcam. This was fascinating and became my new source of porn. I would sit on these sites and keep pressing next until a female would appear (this was an incredibly rare occurrence). If one did appear, I would persuade them to strip for me, and i would masturbate. This gave me such an incredible high at the time, but once I had 'finished' I would begin to feel extremely depressed and frustrated at myself for being this low. I have been stuck in the chatroulette abyss for overall a year now and I have tried to quit multiple times, but keep relapsing. I have wasted hours and hours on this and feel like shit every time at the end (a bit like gambling I guess).

    However last Thursday (21st April 2020), I reached my breaking point, I decided that if I don't effectively stop these habits right now, I will have a miserable future ahead of me.
    Since Thursday I have relapsed twice (On Saturday night on chatroulette) and on sunday morning (today) using Flirt4free (webcam models site).
    I want to completely put an end to this twisted sexual addiction, and I will do whatever it takes (e.g. psychology) to eradicate it from my life. In addition to this webcam addiction, for the past year I have also been compulsively using dating apps in a sexual and unhealthy manner.
    Anyway, I really appreciate it if you made it to the end of this barage. If you relate to my problems at all, I give you my deepest sympathy. I will give you updates on this thread about relapses etc... I WILL NOT RELAPSE AGAIN! Stay awesome!
     
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  3. palindromo

    palindromo Fapstronaut

    Welcome
    Please, start studying carefully what's happening in your mind > https://oceanrecoverycentre.com/2016/07/the-ultimate-guide-to-overcoming-internet-porn-addiction/

    First time without porn will be stressful , but if you resist , in some months you will feel reborn.

    If the first times a person relapse easly, it's okay.
    The streaks becomes even longer , day by day.
    Don't porn anymore, it's better to struggle and at the last to relapse than to look at porn.
    No more instagram pictures of models. No more erotic imagines , erotic stories or erotic asmr.
    If you experience ''flatline'' and low libido , resist.
    > https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/por...l-size-and-or-libido-are-decreasing-flatline/

    An effective weapon to overcome urges and thoughts : mindfulness.
    The brain will try to win you and to get some triggers for the seek of dopamine. Resist

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    I know chatroulette is terrible, sometimes i used it when i was teen . The arausal is the high
     
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  4. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    @palindromo thanks so much for your comment I really appreciate the advice.

    Is it okay if I still masturbate (with no porn) using my imagination because I'm 18 and have an incredibly high sex drive due to my age. I'm worried that if I completely stop fapping it may make me more horny and tempted to chatroulette again.
     
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  5. palindromo

    palindromo Fapstronaut

    Yes , to start you can do like you planned.

    But be very aware ! MO should be a pleausure, not a moment to relapse for your personal stress.
    And according to my opinion to MO more than 1 time per week is a lot. If you can't control it , quit Masturbation too.

    However you must know that your fear to have high sex drive is false. It only happens in the first 10 days. Your brain rebels on you
    Then starts the flatline, that is the real healing phase.
    And if you keep masturbating unfortunately you'll never discover the beneficts of sexual energy transmutation and flatline healing phase.
    It is a magic thing to feel reborn and with more energy.
     
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  6. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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  7. palindromo

    palindromo Fapstronaut

    Try once , but if you quit is better.

    Maybe you can do a period of reboot ( 3 months )with NO PMO and than add masturbation when you feel improved
     
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    George Killian New Fapstronaut

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  9. By acknowledging the situation the first step is already done! I've joined last month and have been improving since. When it comes to relapsing, I've come to the conclusion that it is nothing but a choice in the end. I don't want you or anybody else to get stuck in this cycle. Therefore I'm encouraging you to keep confronting and informing yourself. You mentioned psychology. Make sure to look it up! That's the best you can do in my opinion.
    It may take some time but remember, you can't walk two paths at the same time. Choose one!

    Here are some useful techniques that I found. They may help you, if you ever feel tempted :)
    https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/strong-urge-killer-phoenix-toolbox.270461/

    https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/g2xfx8/i_want_to_share_a_technique_that_has_helped_me_a/

    I'll read your success story one day ;)
     
  10. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    Fuck I relapsed again tonight. This is some powerful addiction I have been suckered into. I will need to eliminate the amount of time In my bedroom. Onwards and upwards!
     
  11. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    I'm gonna try to have a nofap streak. No fapping for as long as possible. STARTING TODAY
     
  12. CaptainFranklin

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    This is very helpful. Everyone always says relapse relapse but really it is just choosing to watch porn or do something you don't want to do. It is a choice, and I have found it very helpful to acknowledge that.
     
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  13. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    I've had an incredibly busy day and got a mark I'm very happy with on a difficult test I have been studying for ages.
    Can I meet women on chatroulette as a rewarding just for tonight then start my streak tomorrow?
     
  14. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    Last time on chatroulette this busty blonde with a big ads was giving me JOI and it was AMAZING. Can I do it tonight just as a reward and then start fresh tomorrow?
     
  15. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    *ass
     
  16. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    @FellowCompanion should I treat myself for my good exam result I'm feeling so aroused now
     
  17. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    Last chatroulette experience was so look good
     
  18. Earl Sweatpants

    Earl Sweatpants Fapstronaut

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    So fucking good*
     
  19. No, you shouldn't. If you want to treat yourself then do it otherwise. Rewarding yourself with the thing you want to stop is contradicting, isn't it? Stay away from PMO. It'll only make it worse for you!
    You can make it without :)
     
  20. You can't walk two paths at the same time. You have to choose one. You delay everything and start tomorrow but what will you say tomorrow?
    "Oh yesterday was amazing, I'll just do it again and start fresh tomorrow"
    This can and will not work out in the long run. PMO is the only cell where prisoner and guardsman are the same person. The only thing holding you back is yourself! Therefore get up, walk out and never look back.
    You have the choice. You are in charge. Decide which path you will follow. If you go for PMO and feel bad for it in the end. There's no other to blame but yourself.
    Do the right thing and stay away from it!

    We believe in you :)
     

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