Clean for nearly 20 days

I have been clean for 20 days. I feel happy. Though I suffer but I want to end this addiction. When I compare what was happening before, I clearly understand that this fight is worth. I still have those visions of lesbians or cute girls who are around me. I want to fuck them. But I remind myself who I am. Fapping is the shortcut to the land of the blessed but real hook-ups and sex demand effort and confidence. They are healthy and do not bring anger, frustration or guilt. I want to live in the present moment, feel and be present. All my life I was escaping the present moment just to hide and evade all the challenges. My mind was controlling me with all those visons. Though now I still have some thoughts but more or less I am learning to control them. I want to say that when mind sneaks into my soul I just disassociate myself from those thought because they are fake and destructive. The only real thing is focus on the present moment.