[Inviting Participants] War Mode [Elimination]

Looking foward to it

 

Day 3 check in.I started suplementing probiotics cause my stomach is messed up.I can feel my mental state is improving everyday.My doctor said i should take em cause i always feel like there is something that is pushing into my stomach like its very tight there in intestines area.Maybe i will finally get some “superpowers”.Cause my doctor said that serotonin is mainly produced in intestine.But I have very tough time at school.Because some girl was touching me sexually so i slapped her butt and her boyfriend wants to beat me up even tho i explained to him that she started it.And somehow girls start to trow themselves at me.Gym really improves attraction.Well wish me luck guys i will try to explain it to him but if that wont work then fight is only option.I didnt even know she had boyfriend XD

 

Day 3 check in! Lets go

 

She's probably getting ready to replace him. She at the very least doesn't respect him. From the sounds of it you don't have much to worry about, guys that talk like "I'm going to kick this guys ass eventually" are generally all talk and no action. If he was serious he probably would have made a move already. He's just trying to scare you is my guess; I would be careful about showing weakness, especially if you've already explained it to him.

A little day 3 drama it looks like...

 

Keep trying. I've never tried to do this while studying, but I could see that being really hard...

 

All the best in your exam!

In my own estimation, willpower can only take you so far. I think you need a deep understanding of your emotional states to understand why strong urges come up and how you can deal with them. You mentioned that you were angry. Also, it seems you were anxious about the coming exam. All these are sudden emotional changes that spike urges. Emotions change faster than we can consciously track them so one needs to develop the habit of knowing which emotional state they are in at a particular time. You need to understand which emotion is the primary trigger and deal with that. For me, shame is the primary trigger. I am researching the hell out of this emotion so that I get to the root of the matter.
I also think you could consider following this workshop to build a good foundation for permanent recovery: https://www.recoverynation.com/recovery/recovery_workshop_contents.php
It is a very long and comprehensive workshop that deals with all manner of sex addictions including porn and masturbation. It has been very helpful for me. I am in lesson 30 now.

 

Check-in Day 4

 

My exam was pretty good. I will get 88% it might increase if the answers I am not sure about are correct.
How was your exam and which exam did you have?

P.S - I had Science exam today.

 

My primary trigger is boredom.

 

Checking in for day 4!

 

pardon me my fellow fire soldier, mind if i write some of my oppinion here.. I think the reason of your relapse maybe in your internal mind, i mean u are so stressed out before the exam and relapsed but when the day comes u can pass the exam

Some option here
1. Overthinking abbout things => stressed => relapse
2. Try to find excuse in dificult situation to relapse

I experienced it brcause i fap a lot when my final exam comes, but one day (30 days ago to be precise), i decided that no more stressed im just doing my life man like right or false , good or bad let god decide it, im here to live my days and give ma best

 

Day 4 btw

 

DAMN!!! On point! That's exactly why I relapsed.. I always find excuses to fap.