College student new to NoFap

Hey all. I'm a 19 year old American bisexual man. I've been viewing porn for years on and off, mostly pictures but for the past two years videos.
I have some hormonal issues that required me to go on HRT, which was really helpful for me in terms of my motivation and drive. I'm not fat and it wasn't related to my lifestyle habits, but I was still ashamed of it. This is something I'm working on. I guess I was blaming my body for not producing enough testosterone and I felt like less of a man.
I feel like I'm wasting time; I could be using this extra energy to exercise, socialize or raise my GPA. Instead I've spent hours in front of my laptop wasting away.

I've been in an open relationship with my girlfriend for a year since starting college and I couldn't imagine not having her in my life. At first it was really great in bed, but now I find myself fantasizing about porn or kinks instead. It seemed that my tastes got more and more niche and it took very particular themes to get me off, and this scared me. I'm also seeing a guy but it's not a serious thing, and I don't really find myself attracted to him anymore because I can look at hot guys on the internet anytime, without spending money or making the effort to see him.

Porn is getting in the way of my actual flesh and blood relationships. It's much easier to spend time with virtual stimulation, in my comfortable bed, not having to worry about my body image issues. I'm too scared to tell my girlfriend how often I really do watch it. My wakeup call was this summer when my sister's husband cheated on her because of his porn addiction. Granted, he watched porn for many more years than I have. But, I don't want to be more antisocial and I can see myself going down a dark path if I don't stop myself now. I used to have a great social life before I got addicted.

I'm choosing to reboot for 30 days. I'm abstaining from porn and masturbation, but not from activity involving my partners. It's cool to see that there is an awesome, supportive community of guys (and gals, and nonbinary pals!) out there with similar goals. Thanks for reading.

 

I'm choosing to put my energy towards schoolwork and exercise. I've exercised twice this week and took a boxing class earlier today, and it felt pretty good to relieve that tension without PMO. I'm also planning on reading when I feel an urge, or contacting a friend. Any other suggestions are welcome!

Thanks for the responses, DJ, 2525 and vxlccm.