Coming back...

Hey guys. 24 yo male here. Its been a while since I've been here. I used to be an avid user on this site, got myself a good AP, was going to 12 step meetings for sex addiction and I was going in the right direction. Long story short I stopped using my support systems and fell back into isolating all the time which lead me to a full on relapse with porn and addictive sexual behavior. I've been in probably the hardest and darkest time of my life right now and I'm really close to ruining my life has my porn addiction is starting to cross over to the real life. Ive desentized with my self with the most messed up kinds of porn, nothing excites me anymore. And that really scares me. Im so done with this addiction. I really need help. I cant do this alone.