Since I was a child I have been facing sexual content. First I was forced to it through a neighbour of mine. Later I just seek it everywhere to reflect on all my emotions. In kindergarten two of my teachers abused me mentally after I had sexual exploration with a girlfriend of mine. The shame in me was planted and grew from this day on. Through my whole life, sexuality was something dirty that I had to hide from other people. Around 12 years old I figured out that I could not stay away from pornography and fantasising about girls in my life in this way. Not I am in my twenties and almost 1 month into NoFap. With every day my desire is growing and taking bigger parts in my thoughts. I admit being helpless over my addiction. Still, I have hope and want to fight for a more healthy life with clear and open sexuality!
Welcome, that's a very brave thing to do. I'm sure you can do it! Keep your hope and you'll get there eventually
Welcome to the community friend. It is good to have you here! 1 month is a huge success, don't give up, stay strong! Good luck!
