Committed AP Group With Leaderboard

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by Halibut, Apr 15, 2019.

  1. Journey to Resilience

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    Day 9: 3-25-20
    • Finished Day 8. On Day 9.
    • Almost fell for the urges, but SCA and prayer helped a lot. It's not getting any easier, but I'll keep going for as long as I can. If I can finish today, I'll be able to break my 9-day-streak.
     
  2. Legit1

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    Day 65. Wow... I got no idea what's happening, but here it goes. Just today I've been having my lips crazy dry throughout the day, which is just weird because the last time I had dry lips was when I was in high school in 9th grade. Also, I'm getting some strong urges that are telling me to relapse, but I know better not to. I relapse, and then what? I'm just going to be in deep regret.

    Only two ways to go -- relapse and feel like crap afterwards, or keep on going with my progress? Keep on going, always.
     
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  3. muhagg

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    I am new here 20m been trying to quit for 3 years.I just returned from a binge and hope this will be my list time starting over.I plan on posting here daily .
    Stay strong
     
  4. :)-keepsmiling

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    When you don't find stability in LIFE look at the BLUE SKY and wonder how STABLE it is.
     
  5. Legit1

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    Day 69. Man... I feel like trash again, but I think it's because I've been pushing the healing process. I've noticed that the last couple days when I take cold showers, I end up feeling negative after 30 minutes after the shower, and then it worsens after an hour or two. And I'm sure taking some herbs for detoxification and changing my eating habits has also been pushing my body and my brain to change for the betterment.

    Just 10 minutes ago I woke up from a nap and felt a lot of frustration within me, so I went to the bathroom and then felt like relapsing over there. A crazy urge just spiked up when I went there, and the frustration just pushed me to want to relapse. I was getting close to start the process, but I immediately thought of how maybe I'm feeling like this because I'm accelerating the healing process by these habit changes. So I immediately snapped out of it and now I'm here sharing out.

    I'll be brutally honest though -- this NoFap thing really will bring some crappy days where you need to increase your mental strength in order to avoid relapsing, and in doing so, you end up feeling drained and frustrated. It's just horrible...
     
  6. muhagg

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    I relapsed again I need to start taking this more seriously so from now on I am going to start posting here daily
     
  7. Legit1

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    Checking on day 75. I won't go into too much detail of my symptoms, because it's one of those times where it's all negative.

    Lately, the past 3 days, I've noticed that I'm going through so much negativity that I'm just feeling absolutely negative. I swear, it's like my brain is using everything it has in order to make me relapse.

    A bit ago, I was getting close to watching porn and relapse, but I got out of it and decided to take a cold shower. Once I jumped in the shower, I couldn't do it... I felt like I was too sensitive for the cold water this time. I guess the only thing to do is to ride it out and strongly hope for a better day to come... god I hate these type of days
     
  8. Journey to Resilience

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    Checking in. Relapsed today. I was on hiatus for a bit, but I will take my recovery a lot more seriously now.
     
  9. Legit1

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    So I'm on day 76 and now it seems that I've gotten better overnight. The symptoms I had yesterday were tiredness, irritability, inability to think straight, and some depression along with frustration. Then physical wise I looked tired, had a pale face, acne popping up, and also some pain in my lower back.

    Also, it took me a bit of thinking, and I realized that I was feeling like drug addict. There was a strong urge to relapse in order to numb myself, very strong. But the whole time I knew that if I relapse I'll be in regret and dissatisfied, because it's a very short feeling that's accompanied with that nasty and uncomfortable feeling that tells you to stop. Once you're done, you just can't keep on going because there's no pleasure, your dick just feels uncomfortable and nasty to keep on stroking it, and then 'negativity' will run throughout your mind and body. So the only thing to do was to keep on pushing no matter how crappy I was feeling.

    The whole time I 100% knew I'm in a fight with my brain. Because today, most of those symptoms faded and I feel like I'm returning to my normal self. The whole NoFap or recovery process has brutal times where your brain really just wants that dopamine hit, and it'll do everything to demoralize you by bringing you down and destroying you mentally. Fuck, man... I wish it wasn't like this, but I guess this is the process where IF we keep on winning against everything our brain throws at us, then it'll rewire itself little by little until it knows that YOU are the one in charge.

    Let's keep on going, guys! We need to make this year meaningful by getting out of the shackles that porn and masturbation put us in!
     
  10. Halibut

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    Hello everyone, hope we are doing well!

    Sorry for my absence, I have been very busy at work and had tested positive for the corona virus last week

    It has been a hell of a time feeling ill, having urges and bad withdrawal symptoms these past couple of weeks, but I feel if I can get through that then there is nothing I cant go through!

    A bit of a late start but I will be running the Abstinence April challenge! You are all on board - lets see you there at the end of April!

    These are strange and difficult times, being forced into self-isolations, lockdowns and the stress of the current world situation can make relapsing appear at the front of your mind - but remember you have been sent your greatest challenge - lets say we got through it together!

    Stay safe, stay indoors, don't beat your meat!

    Leaderboard:

    1| @Legit1 (77):emoji_trophy:
    2| @pourover24 (60) :emoji_medal:
    3| @GKDOES (53):emoji_military_medal:
    4| @Misha4blues97 (47)
    5| @Vitabella (46)
    6| @FeelDark (28)
    7| @Misty1984 (20)
    8| @31Jan2020 (18)
    9| @Halibut (13)
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    @L1ster (13)
    11| @Narzisse (6)
    12| @Accountability Bud (4)
    13| @Journey to Resilience (1)
    14| @SelfLoathingMillennial (0)
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    *ABSTINENCE APRIL CHALLENGE*

    Last man standing - relapse and you are out

    1| @Narzisse
    2| @Legit1
    3| @Halibut
    4| @pourover24
    5| @GKDOES
    6| @Misha4blues97
    7| @Accountability Bud
    8| @Vitabella
    9| @L1ster

    10| @SelfLoathingMillennial
    11| @FeelDark
    12|@Misty1984
    13| @Journey to Resilience
    14| @31Jan2020
     
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  11. pourover24

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    Hey guys - doing well here. Its hard being in quarantine - but I've been gaining strength in some different ways. Urges are still there though - I have to stay on my guard basically all the time still.

    Also, I've been very busy and tired with schooling our kids now - and figuring out how that will work out schedule-wise with my wife.
     
  12. Legit1

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    Have you tried some fasting there and there? If you have to eat anything, eat something light like fruits and berries if you're hungry and make sure you're hydrated. I know this is sounds too simple to be strong and effective, but your body will give all its energy on getting your body back to normal. If you're vomiting, sweating, have a runny nose, or have nausea -- just let the natural course run through since all these symptoms are a part of your body purging the bad stuff out. Stay strong, brother! I'm rooting for you!

    @Halibut https://londonreal.tv/the-coronavir...e-your-rights-destroy-our-economy-david-icke/
    Check that video out. I'm only at the 25 minute mark and it sounds very interesting and also reliable as I'm watching it. Also, I'm not a huge "conspiracy theorist" as I myself don't believe everything that is said, I just observe and keep it in my head just in case if light is ever shed on it. Long story short, I found that video on YouTube before YouTube deleted that video twice from LondonReal, and then YouTube even deleted two 5-6 minute clips where LondonReal titled it as "." and also because they were the most critical scenes from the interview. And now a lot of people are backing this small news outlet because they're being censored. There's a lot of heat on this company from BBC apparently as well... and EVEN Instagram isn't letting people tag the interviewee and the interviewer. Something very fishy is going on.
     

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  13. Halibut

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    I am well and back at work now thanks @Legit1 , luckily just had mild symptoms

    I have heard bits about this video and as far as I am aware this is the guy linking covid-19 to 5g towers and encouraging the burning of these towers and saying that the covid vaccine will contain 'nanotechnology micro chips'.

    I have not watched the video so there maybe some interesting points but to me this would threaten the lockdown policy, reducing the effectiveness of isolation, encouraging arson and reducing the chance that people will take a vaccine when introduced which would provide immunity to millions of vulnerable people.

    I work for the ambulance service on the front lines and its mad out there people should treat this lockdown seriously, staying indoors where-ever possible and not spreading this virus.
     
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  14. Legit1

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    I used to think this guy was a pathetic and crazy guy who craves attention, but not anymore. I don't believe everything he still says because it does sounds crazy as f*ck but this guy's predictions have actually happened there and there.

    Still haven't finished the video but that 20 minute to 30 minute mark was very interesting.
     
  15. Legit1

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    Interesting. Keep it up, bro! You got this!

    Also, I'm now at day 81. Yesterday I was feeling good for the most part, until later on at night. I felt very unstable mentally-wise. I needed to take a 2nd cold shower that day in order to stabilize myself, but it really didn't help much, because the water wasn't cold as I wanted. I just felt so frustrated as well, that I wished that water was freezing cold where I can't stand it. But whatever... the day is done and I'm honestly feeling way much better today. We must always keep our guard up and brace ourselves for these type of days, because they're just bound to happen.

    Update: Also been feeling a ton of sexual energy within myself. I know that I'm absolutely not going to relapse, because it'll only lead to pure negativity as usual. So I'm just going to embrace it and keep on moving with my day.
     
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  16. Legit1

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    Day 84. Man... I'm not proud to say this but I've been watching porn lately. The boredom I've been experiencing lately is at a new level, and then the mood swings that arrive aren't in my favor.

    Throughout the day I've been feeling anger physically leaving my body. I can't explain this that well, but sometimes when I'm standing in place, I feel a sense of heat leaving my body and at the same time I'm just feeling plain anger. I'm going to do a meditation session in a bit in hope it'll calm me down or anything to make me feel better mentally-wise
     
  17. Iamm

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    I've read the rules, and would like to become an AP.
    I'm a 19 year old male from india.please add me to this group
     
  18. Journey to Resilience

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    Checking in today. I relapsed yesterday as well as a few days before. I'm starting to come back to my senses. I was generally productive this week although I believe I could always do better.
     
  19. Legit1

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    Day 90. I wish I could say that I've been feeling better, but that's not the case here. I felt like I was going down yesterday, but today is a whole other level of feeling negative. I feel like my brain is giving it it's all to make me relapse... I never get headaches, I think I've only gotten about 3 headaches or so in my life, but today I've been having a very bad headache that's honestly bringing me down. It doesn't feel good and now I've been getting the want to relapse...

    I've been feeling quite badly about myself, on how I've messed myself up with this addiction... if I knew what I was getting into when I was younger, I know I would've never have went down this road. Just feel so much regret right now...
     
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  20. Legit1

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    Update: I'll never understand how I have ups and downs so quickly, where one day I feel like absolute trash and then the next day I'm feeling much better.

    The headache I was having yesterday was a bad one. Once I woke up, I felt my head was in pain from sleeping in one position the whole night. Right now I still feel some minor pain, but it's definitely gotten better. Yesterday, the pain was feeling so badly that I felt like I was going to go insane from it... so I immediately took a cold shower to get an adrenaline rush and forget that pain for a bit. It ended up working for a while, but then the pain arrived like an hour later.

    I'm still going to keep on going! I honestly don't want to stop even though I've gotten my ass kicked so much during this streak. It just has to get better, right?
     
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