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Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by Halibut, Apr 15, 2019.

  1. Journey to Resilience

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    On Day 3. I will finish Day 4 in 35 minutes. I am feeling apprehensive right now because I have to stay a late night today for some work I have to turn in. I did have temptations on various points of the day, especially some stronger ones towards evening. I warded them off with distractions. I just hope I am going to be okay within this time since late nights are my greatest weakness when it comes to relapse.

    I hope to at least reach 9 or 10 days on average. But for now, I'll take it one moment at a time.
     
  2. Journey to Resilience

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    Finished Day 4. Working on Day 5. I slept at 1am and woke up with strong temptations at 5am. Couldn't sleep well since. I am feeling okay now. No temptations currently. I will sleep when I get the chance. I'll also let you know how I am doing at the end of the day.
     
  3. Journey to Resilience

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    It's the end of the day for me and I am doing better. I mainly distracted myself from temptations with prayer and other activities. I thought it was going to go much worse, but I am surprised it went as well as it did. I did look at P briefly, but quickly stopped. No full-relapse though.
     
  4. Legit1

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    Thanks a lot for the motivational words! Yes, I passed the 100 day mark and now I'm at 101 days.

    What I find the most toughest in my journey is those constant shifts where I'm feeling good for 3-5 days, but then there's the shift where I feel like trash, negative, and feel like most of the benefits have dissapeared. I end up having mood swings, mental fog, anxiety rises, fatigue, and even some sort of depression. I don't know if anyone else gets these sort of phases or if it's just me... if it's just me, then so be it... everyone is different and I can't do anything about it, except to brace myself and ride it out.
     
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  5. pourover24

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    Hey guys - I relapsed, unfortunately. I've made progress but obviously am not quite where I want to be. This season of being basically in a lock down has been hard for me and I find it difficult to look forward to anything right now - which has made porn seem more enticing. I'll try to get on and post some more soon.
     
  6. great work!!!
     
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  7. Legit1

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    Day 108. A few hours ago I was about to start the process to relapse... I wasn't even full of urges or any of that. The heat and the boredom somewhat got to me and I wanted to go down that road and get some sort of fullfilment by it. But right now I just feel disgusted with myself... I didn't edged or anything, but I just don't feel okay that I was going down that road. For some deep reason that I don't fully comprehend, I'm just feeling disgusted and like trash.

    Also, I forgot to mention that my face is having that nice glow to it alongside with some clear skin. These 2 benefits have increased my confidence! It's why I want to keep on going just so I can keep these benefits and hopefully gain more other benefits
     
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  8. DragonHeating

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    Hey guys! Feels sort of weird coming here again from a long time ago. News is i relapsed at day 96 (depression hit me like a missile the second i did that). Now im basicly struggling to even go 5 days (yes its that bad) but dont worry ill find a way to get back on my feet, sooner or later.
     
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  9. Legit1

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    Checking in on day 113. So I was feeling good the last couple days, but today is when I noticed that some sharp urges and frustration have paired up to make me wants to relapse. So close I was going to watch porn and see if I could find anything, but I calmed myself down and asserted myself that this setback will eventually pass and that I'll feel good again if I keep on going. Because as soon as I relapse, my problems will only get numbed and still be there. I'm still going to keep on going, guys! We gotta be strong as possible when everything seems to be crumbling.
     
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  10. Legit1

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    Day 117. Man... Honestly, I'm feeling like giving up... Just some hours ago I got into yet another physical fight with an older brother of mine. I punched him first since he shoved me as I was getting water and then we just went at it. I got 2 small bruises on that little side apart from my right eye. But somehow I had no type of serious pain from the fight, just a bit of pain on the right side of my head.

    We haven't been cool with each other for a long time, and that's because he's a damn useless person. 25 years old, never had a job, treats my mom like trash, dropped out of school in 8th grade, and more shit.

    I was totally feeling like I won't turn to porn and masturbation for some pleasure, but damn... can't help myself. I just want to relapse and numb myself. But damn... I know it's a deceitful act that will only leave me in regret, anger, and in pure disgust. Ugh. Really just not feeling like myself at the moment.
     
  11. Legit1

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    Yeah... I'm still going on, but it's been tough for sure. I keep saying myself that I need to keep this recovery process going and going until I finally feel fully healed, and it's better to get it done as soon as possible. I'm now at day 120 (4 months)
     
  12. Legit1

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    Get back on track as soon as possible! I just checked your profile and seen that you're 16 years old, which is really awesome! If I were you, I would stop relapsing as soon as possible. Trust me, this damn addiction really won't bring you anything that you'll be proud of. It doesn't matter if you relapse and enjoy the feeling of it, because you actually make more damage to yourself that outweighs the pleasure of it so damn easily. You got this, bro! Get on the path of NoFap and stay there! You're on the right track over here.
     
  13. Legit1

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    Day 124. This NoFap is like a rollercoaster... there's days when I feel worse and after 2-3 days I feel like I get better, but then the bad days come back very quick. Yesterday, I was feeling good and had the benefits showing up, but today I feel so damn bored with low energy. I think I may approach a flatline soon enough? Because my libido is low and even the idea of porn seems ugly and stupid... I don't know, but it feels like all of this is just a big brain fog where I can't even think straight.

    I'm going to ride it out, though. I drilled the idea that this short pleasure is nothing meaningful and is all overhype. But anyways... I don't even feel like relapsing, I just feel like a sloth today.
     
  14. Howyadoin

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    I have read the rules and would like to become an AP. I am a 21 yr old college undergrad athletic male looking for someone around my age to check in and move past this behavior together!
     
  15. Legit1

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    Day 130! I swear, this NoFap thing is truth! I'm feeling the benefits getting quite noticeable since yesterday! There's definitely been some rough and bumpy times due to the withdrawals and urges, but I'm 100% happy that I kept on going! I swear to you, guys, I will keep on going and make this streak the biggest and most meaningful one. I'm totally cool if I get some nasty and tough days, because I'm aware that I'm still not all the way there as I would like. But one day at a time, and I'll eventually get there!

    Side note: 3 days ago I've hiked 14 miles in 3 days with two days at 4 miles and the 3rd day at 6 miles. It took me 1 day to recover from soreness in my feet. Then the next day I dry fasted for 29 hours. And then today I went back to another hike and did 7 miles! Came home and took a long cold shower! I'm definitely making some progress.
     
  16. Starshower

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    Day 17. Haven't been the most productive but no real craving for PMO in sight. So that's a positive.
     
  17. Journey to Resilience

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    I am checking in for today. I went on a binge more or less. There are some things I need to sort out first. But thank you for your patience.
     
  18. Legit1

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    Seems like this group is going to die soon enough. I'm just going to go out and say that if it keeps on being like this, then this post will be my very last post in this thread.

    Anyways... I'm currently at day 135. Yesterday, I felt like I was going down again and I was actually contemplating the need to relapse, but I immediately looked at myself in the mirror and told myself "Hey man, keep on going, I know you're feeling like the benefits have dissapeared, but keep on going. Never forget that the short-term pleasure you're seeking isn't going to relieve your stress and frustration." And so I made it through yesterday and I'm still standing to this day.

    Today I've noticed a stronger glow in my face, but I know to never get too cocky, because there's more benefits around the corner. I truly know that the benefits will keep on getting better if I keep on going. I keep that image of how I looked when I was in 10th grade -- my skin was caramel brown instead of pale, had clear skin, had no dark circles, eyes looked sharp, hair was easily manageable and looked stylish, my confidence was sky high, and I had so much "game" (ability to attract women) without even trying. If it takes me 2 years to fully recover, so be it! I want my life back with everything I got, and I will keep on going until i have it! I don't care for the withdrawals and urges anymore, because my willpower and determination are at another level where I would rather break apart and cry uncontrollably first instead of relapsing.
     
  19. Journey to Resilience

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    You can get dark circles from M? I did not know that!
     
  20. DragonHeating

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    So that explains why i used to have so many? Huh.
     

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