Committed AP Group With Leaderboard

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by Halibut, Apr 15, 2019.

  1. Legit1

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    Mines are actually getting better! And yup, I'm still going and at day 185!

    It's funny because flatlines are actually a thing. Being brutally honest and keeping it simple -- flatlines usually make me feel like I'm going backwards because I feel negative, tired, get mood swings, dark circles appear more noticeable, and I just look like a guy who hasn't slept for a week. But yeah... there is light after a flatline and the benefits return. Just gotta have strong determination and perseverance
     
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  2. L1ster

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    Despite me technically trying to do no-PMO for about 8 months now, I haven't had much success. I believe this is due to a poor commitment. Nonetheless, since a short while now, I've begun to treat my commitment to no-PMO much more seriously and with much better care. The largest change that I made to my approach was that I've started being much stricter about what I consider to be a relapses. Before, for instance, I would probably not consider a single, short, but intentional glimpse at some P-related material a relapse. But now I do.

    Also, I've just read that Bliss More book on meditation which @Halibut recommended some time ago; and I've now started trying to meditate for the first time ever! Still, I haven't yet gone about following through with the "Exchange Principle" (chapter 5), because I don't yet know what I should do for my "exchange".

    Hell yes dude! You're amazing ^^
     
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  3. Legit1

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    I'm pretty sure you'll eventually get the hang of it and have a high streak of your own one day. You're still younger than most of us here and still learning some big things that a lot of wished we learned when we were younger.

    Funny thing is that I've been on the NoFap reddit for some time already, and just today there was a 40 year old telling everyone under 25 years old that we're lucky to have discovered NoFap at a young age. That post really made me feel good and increased my faith on becoming a better person.

    Also, 9 days ago I turned 24 years old! I'm hoping on going 1 year and 6 months of no orgasm whatsoever. I personally think I may need 2 years to reverse 90% of the damage from masturbation and porn but we'll see how it goes.
     
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  4. Liberation111

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    You are above 10 now. Since you are posting I assume there is a way in? Interested
     
  5. leo Cold Stone

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    add me please i have read the rules
     
  6. L1ster

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    You're right that there can always be found a yang even in the yin :D
    On the other hand, I fear that I might never fully/mostly recover due to how early I was exposed to pmo (i.e. at an age when my brain was rapidly developing)... What do you think?

    But whatever the case, we are where we are and its up to us to make the best of it by working towards betterment. It's our responsibility and I believe also a moral duty -- because if we don't improve ourselves then we waste the opportunity to do good and becoming more resistant to evil.

    And despite this you've chosen to persist. That's a true knightly move! I hope to follow in your steps, man!
     
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  7. Legit1

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    Day 197... I hope the rest of us and @Halibut join this group again because it was a useful group where I can talk to others who've I already known for a long time.

    But yeah... so I've been on another flatline and today is the 4th day of the current flatline... I feel like this flatline is showing no mercy and seriously made all the benefits dissapear. I feel like my old self when I was deep into this addiction, and damn... it does not feel good. Just 10 minutes ago I went to a porn site and wanted to end it because this flatline is rough... I get thoughts that maybe this thing is fake and useless, but that's because that's what the flatline does every time.

    I just seriously wonder for how long am I going to keep on getting flatlines because it's getting to the point where these flatlines just drain me pretty harshly...
     
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  8. L1ster

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    That sucks dude but you must not give up. If not for yourself then do it for others. Because by viewing porn we're not only polluting and scaring our own minds and bodies. We're also supporting an industry which enables sex-trafficking, degrades the sanctity of the human body, promotes {senseless, self-serving, unearned, shortsighted} instant-gratification, bolsters lies, and exploits peoples' sexuality & health -- including that of the underage! All for the sake of revenue.

    Besides, the effects of porn-use on ourselves are that it weakens and pacifies us; diminishing an opportunity and our ability to self-improve, do good, and stand up to what's wicked.

    I hope this helped encourage you to continue moving forward. Because with all that you've gone through (+197 days!), you seriously deserve to succeed.
     
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  9. Legit1

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    Thanks for reaching out. Yesterday, I was feeling like the flatline pushed me into a corner and fighting back was tough. As I was watching porn, I kept going back and forth on whether I should relapse or not, so I just turned off my phone and went laid in bed just riding out these intense feelings and urges.

    It's just that flatlines are rough. But today I woke up and felt somewhat refreshed than the past 3 days even though I'm still sure I'm still flatlining.

    I honestly then came here and posted my post in hope that someone will arrive and motivate me to keep on going, so thanks for that @L1ster I guess my brain was getting very frustrated for so long since I haven't relapsed for 197 days... because yesterday I would feel anger within me every time I kept resisting to relapse. I'm convinced that my brain went into panic mode and settled this flatline to push me further to relapse. It felt like I was a drug addict who needed to get his relapse, because it's weird how I felt like a heating sensation in my lower back alongside with anger when I kept resisting...
     
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  10. L1ster

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    I'm happy that my comment helped and that you're still fighting. :)

    By the way, I was researching a bit on flatlines earlier, and as a result found this motivational & informative video which I think is a quite powerful reality-check:
    It's by a YouTube channel I've come to like named "Trajan"; it also features many other top-notch nofap and self-improvement videos I would recommend watching sometime -- maybe when you need extra motivation. :D
     
  11. DragonHeating

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    Been on a really big loop with pmo-ing and i can't seem to break it. Hopefully soon.
     
  12. Legit1

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    Still going strong, guys! Been getting some bad days where my depression gets worse, but I don't end up relapsing because I know that it's a pointless action that won't heal my depression or anything.

    Also, I've come to hate porn! Honestly! Back then I used to love porn so much, I would watch it almost every day. But now I honestly can go without it, which is a big thing for me because I used to think I would always be addicted to porn because I really like it that much.

    I will confess that I rarely watch porn there and there, but I get disgusted most of the time, and sometimes I just don't find it interesting so I end up closing the tab. I know that doing this is counterproductive, but it's just cool to know that I no longer like to watch porn! It's really something big for me in my book.

    And as you can see, I'm currently at day 234 days since my last relapse. I can definitely see myself healing from this addiction but I just gotta be patient and give it more time.
     
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  13. Halibut

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    Hi all who are still here and I hope you are doing well

    I apologise for my absence from the group, I have been doing fairly well since I was here last. I am on day 15, but have achieved 72 days on my last streak. I feel less addicted to porn and when I relapse I rarely binge.

    I have also been seeing a CBT therapist to help deal with the underlying emotions and thought patterns that I have which led to my P use. Remember P is the symptom, not the cause!

    I am back here to feel part of the community again as I feel it effect on my willpower is great and to be with those who are fighting the same fight. Its also to give back to the community that has helped me so much - I dont know where I would be without nofap - other than jacking off!

    PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU GUYS ARE STILL AROUND - I want to get the leaderboard up and running again and updated weekly.
     
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  15. ZoranTomic00

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    Hello. I'd like to join the group if there's still space.
     
  16. lolman123

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    Hi 'I have read the rules and would like to become an AP'.
    On my best streak in last year of 40+ days (No PMO) and want to join the AP group and can keep the group updated on weekly basis in this forum. I'm a UK 25 Yr M and interested in joining the group.
     
  17. Halibut

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    Hey @lolman123, I will add you to the group welcome aboard.

    Great to hear you are making some mega progress, keep this streak going man and you are set up well for 2021!
     
  18. lolman123

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    Great, thanks for adding me. Trying to keep up my streak for as long as possible hopefully accountability group gets us all a bit more willpower to keep going. I'll check-in for this week, no MO for 40 days and no P Since 13th December / 5 days, keeping my MO separate from P since it stops me wanting to relapse just for seeing P.
     
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  19. Trailblazer7

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    'I have read the rules and would like to become an AP'
     
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  20. givingupallhope

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    would like to be an ap, 31y old male
     

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