Update for April 25,2019 Last night there was a power cut so couldn't sleep well. Felt bit drowsy today but it was overall a good day. As far as walking is concerned, I was only able to hit 9k steps. PS- Is there a way I can upload image along with my comment?
Much better day today. Just knowing that the Xbox loophole is closed makes me feel so much better. I got up at a decent time today, and have had decent energy for most of the day. Work went well. I stayed on task and actually had my internet shut off basically the entire 8 or so hours that I worked. It helps not having non-porn distractions for keeping focused. Tonight, I am going to the book club that is in my neighborhood. I'm headed into the weekend and shouldn't have to be sitting at my computer for long stretched again until Monday, so these next few days should give me a chance to get my streak going. Still, I need to be vigilant, but I'll be around my family quite a bit so there shouldn't be many chances. On to the next!
Checkin in. Today, is the first time I've felt tempted to relapse, but this addiction will not get the better of me. Hope everyone is keeping the faith. Til' next time..
I have read your rules dude , can i become a part of your group , i am desperately trying to give up this fapping habit but i dont have an accountability partner Please help
@needhelpdesperately welcome to the group, keep fighting the habit, we are all here to support eachother.
Check in at day 10 - so far so good. I have been working long 12hr shifts that havent left me the energy to think about pmo. This group is also in the back of my mind, I feel that by relapsing I would be letting myself and others down and therefore keeps me strong - thanks guys! My weekend that I had off I filled with seeing mates and my girlfriend and it felt great to be with real people compared with dirty pixels on a screen. I generally have more energy, motivation and desire to be social with people. Keep up the fight!
Quick check in. Strong urge to relapse this morning, so I am on the forum instead of looking for porn.
Hang in there buddy. Find something to do. To break habit you have to make a habit. Find something you can detour yourself with when those urges hit..
Fine day. Didn't have much chance to do anything, and I didn't feel many urges at all. On the other hand, I woke up extremely hungover due to drinking a bit too much last night at my book club. It was a very enjoyable time to be with friends - but I've got to be better next time about staying under a limit better. I rarely drink too much - its really only been at this book club lately. Therefore, I had to sleep a bit more this morning and killed my productivity for the day, which I wasn't thrilled about. I didn't have any editing to do but had a few household items I had wanted to do while the kids were at school and I lost that chance. My wife and I had a bit of a disagreement as well - but were thankfully able to makeup and all is well tonight as we put our kids to bed. I'm excited to spend the weekend at home with family, and I am extremely grateful for all I've been given. I'm thankful for this group as well!
Checking in. Looking forward to the weekend. Hope everyone is staying strong in the fight. We are all here because we know what PMO has done/cost us. Remember that when you feel like you're falling or slipping back to the meaningless habit of PMO. Focus on where you want to be and not where you have been. To BREAK a HABIT you have to MAKE a HABIT. I believe just not watching porn is not enough,. You have to find new healthy habits to replace the bad one or bad will take hold after awhile. @pourover24 I know what you mean with the drinking to much. I have identified that as one of my triggers. It just lowers my overall discipline level and makes it harder to fight if things get tough. I have set a limit for myself and stick to it. There is nothing wrong with drinking in my eyes. I have a beer with buddies a lot its what we do. But ive found I can have 3 drinks, have a good time, and stay on track. Or i can have 12 drinks and be a wreck. Just find that balance. Hang in there buddy.
Checking in with update, lasted 4 days but then caved. It felt almost easy for the four days and it was an inability to shake my thoughts off O in the end that cornered me. P didn't seem to be an issue for me, which I thought it would, but I did use it to O as thought Ive failed now so no point not. Feel disappointed with my lack of will power and that ive ended up where I started so quickly. Will just focus on getting past that 4 day wall now.
woow the flatline just got stronger like i have zero libido at all except my balls are bigger than ever i did not excpect this. Literally its like i lost all my sexual desire like i dont have the urge to look at anything. wtfff
Had some unexpected alone time this morning. Naturally, the urge to look at porn and PMO called. I did some yoga instead. It seemed to reset my mental state. I just hopped on here to report in. Now I'm off to do other productive things. Have a great day everybody.
check in update. Again, i was away from this website for 2 days and i gave away. Hopefully I stay on here every day.
I just had a wet dream. Right when my libido was at a low i went to sleep and had a dream of me masturbating to a girl sit. I was so uncoscious i couldnt stop myself from orgasm. Does this set me back in anyway? Also my wet dream wasnt me with a girl but me masturbating that cant be good.
I have had this before - I have dream that I am masturbating and then 'o' which I feel guilty about after. Its just your brain missing your previous habit. The fact that you are getting wet dreams is a good sign - a show of progress. Dont think that this is a set back in anyway.
Check in - Have had very bad urges today. Have like a week off and no motivation to do anything. This is leading me to feel bored and really want to pmo. I was getting really irritated and opening up browers on my phone. I finally thought that I have to get outside or I am going to do something I regret. I went out on a few mile bike ride and pushed myself hard - have come back feeling good and the urges have gone - especially after the cold shower!
Checking in. Urges are starting to kick in - I just opened up a familiar site and then quickly escaped before going anywhere. It just seems that if I don't keep track of every thought in my brain, my thoughts are suddenly becoming sexual in nature. This always seems to happen after 4-7 days of going strong. The eventual pattern finds me breaking down under the exhausting cycle of trying to break my brain away from these thoughts. I also have found myself feeling pretty low about other things in my life over these past two days. I don't know for certain, but based on what I've read about withdrawal, the feeling of being generally sad/depressed is something others have had to cope with. It's like, these are things that I normally might get a little bummed about - but just haven't been able to shake in the same way this weekend. As the cycle goes, when I feel low - I tend to try to find something to cheer me up. When I try to find things to cheer me up, sometimes I crack open a beer. Or, sometimes, I'll just decide to try and find some P and E a bit. I need to battle through these feelings of lowness. I'm also pretty tired today after staying up a bit too late last night - so I'm moving a bit slow. My plan is to go to bed at a better time tonight. @Halibut: Boredom and lack of motivation is also something I face during this time - so I think I am similar to where you are right now. I love the idea of a bike ride. Good work on going that route. @RTBFOP: Thanks for the encouragement my man, yeah - it always seems like a fun idea to go too far in the moment - but I regret it the next morning. The next morning can often be the worst time for me to be triggered because I feel so out of it.
Check in, i relapsed. I dont know what overcame me but i just gave into it. I dont know what to say right now, pretty much going into a downward shame spiral.
