I keep making excuses for myself, I am completely addicted and struggling with the idea of quitting PMO. It actually hurts down there from the abuse, and I feel really low. I think the norepinephrine withdrawal is getting to me, I just feel horrible like I'm in shock and yet I can't seem to quit. I just drift back to it every few days like clockwork. I can't even manage 7 days and when I do I will just relapse. I feel like I'm losing the support of my family and I just can't bear to tell them, I'm so ashamed of it. What should I do?