So, my story starts like most others however my husband didn’t show any signs of not wanting me. First a little back story. We have been married for 15 years and we had over the years watched porn together, explored fetishes and been pretty open about what we like and want. And in no way did our sex life struggle. Where most couples have “monthly” sex, we have always had a 4 to 5 times a week sex schedule. This was normal for us. In the last 2 years I have traveled a lot for work. Not usually gone more than a couple days a month. I n the beginning of Last year, I became a little suspicious about what he was doing because when I was not in the room he would be on his tablet and then hide it quick when I came into the room. So 1 morning after he left for work, I opened it up and looked at his browser history... and BAM, like being hit with a ton of bricks. He was on numerous webcam sites. Now my husband has a thing for redheads (and I’m not one). So I wrote down these sites he was going to and wasn’t hard to figure it his password. Shocked, angered, heartbroken emotions took over. I pulled up one and went to his account, they keep chat archives and private room conversations. It had been going on for months and he was chatting with these girls, telling them to do this and do that. Then I saw this token thing kept coming up. So I went to token history, where I saw purchases of hundreds of tokens and where he had passed them out to these girls for private shows. It showed daily activity for hours at a time. I confronted him and he explained he didn’t know why he did it but it was just for attention. I couldn’t understand because I give him tons of attention everyday. He said that my traveling for work made him lonely. Well, we got in a big fight. He promised not to anymore and I also eased my traveling at work. So the past year I barely traveled at all. Tried to be more attentive and loving. And things seemed ok but of course I still couldn’t trust that he had given it up. A few months ago I decided to check in on his tablet, and same sites came up, but the old username and password had only the old stuff. Well the great thing about browsers is that it holds past usernames. So guess what, to hide it further he just created new usernames. And of course more purchases and chats with women. So, confronted him again where he said he has a problem and can’t help it. That he was working on trying to get help and had been looking at help sites and etc. I sent him information on NoFap and the forum. He says he has been reading posts here. So, fast forward to today. I’m feeling the dishonesty rushing back in. He put a password lock on his tablet. So my thoughts are... to keep his dirty little secrets hidden and to keep me from finding out. So why still hiding if you are getting help. Or trying to get help? I just don’t understand why in the first place. We have a good marriage, thriving sex life. We try new things and go on dates. He tells me he loves me all the time. Tells me I am beautiful, things I wear tells me I’m sexy. All this but yet he needs to talk and give our money to these girls. Why?