Confession

Hey guys! Ive been struggling with PIED for some time and yeah it sucks. Ive reach 90 days, made huge improvement but that wasnt enough. Maybe i needed like 30 more days or so. I was thinking something. I am an addict. So PIED problem comparing to addiction is nothing.this is much bigger problem. Good thing is that when i cure my addiction problem I am going to cure PIED thing. That goes in a package. Ive been M addict for like 15 years, not porn addict but M addict. I started fapping at very early age. I think i remember the first time and it felt good. Like a little kid 7byears old i fapped to nothing. Really without any stimulus. Just for fun. Today I said that even tho i made huge success in my life in diffrent areas of life and to some maybe i am someone they look up to I am deeply unsatasfied with myself. Maybe someone in my position would ask why? Because i am chasing to be "perfect". I am chasing best version of myself!!! Not giving up on that. I want to be successful in spiritual way, in business, with girls, to be fit etc. This bad habit is something that i need to cut off to be so much closer to my best version. This is going to be really tough battle. I know because ive reached before 30,45,90 days on NOFAP. What is enough is enough! This is going to stop. M addiction is serious problem, and who underestimate it is stupid. Before my M habit I justified with excuses like its not a big deal, demon attacks, to feel calm when im under preassure. I forgive myself i did made those excuses because i wasnt aware of my addictiom, but now when i am there are no excuses anymore! I am going to cure this addiction but additional bonus to that is that i am going to cure PIED, reach spiritual balance, close the gate for demons, and ofc girls usually try to control guys over sex which is interesting topic. They want to be in a position of control when they "blackmail" us using sex. When you reach that inner balance you wont give a damn. You'll just tell her to reconsider once again her acts or she is out.
My advice to you all is to NEVER give up on yourself!! God wouldnt put us in this position if he knew that we are not capable to successed and overcome any issue in front of us.

Stay strong. Have faith

 

Thank you! It really means alor!!