Confused on what is happening

Good morning/afternoon,

I've been trying to complete NoFap for over a year now. In fact, I've never been past 4 days without masturbating and over a week without watching porn. I've had strong urges all the time. However, since roughly two weeks ago, I completely stopped getting urges and, funny enough, can't get hard either.

Right now I'm sort-of in a stage of my life where I'm still searching for my passions and am slightly depressed from time-to-time. I haven't been the best but I wouldn't say I've been bad. However, one day out of nowhere, I had a huge depressive episode. Halfway through my day, I was filled with anger and sadness with no reasoning behind it and I could not stop it. I still didn't have urges but I was thinking that maybe it is a withdrawal symptom of not masturbating (sometimes known as plateauing I believe). Based on my thinking I decided to masturbate; and it was weird. First of all, it was difficult to get hard, stay hard, and climax. Secondly, I didn't even feel a hint of pleasure at all in doing so. After that, things went back to normal, but I still have no urges whatsoever. In addition, I can't get "fully" hard. Ever since I started NoFap I've had a slight case of POED where I could get hard after some difficulty, but still, the erection would to poor. I've been doing well (ie. working out, eating well, filling my day with productive things). However, I wouldn't say I'm content with my life right now. As I've mentioned before, I don't really have a passion for anything right now, and searching for it is tedious and frustrating. What I want to say is that I've been feeling unmotivated, tired, and lazy ever since I've been experiencing this "plateau". I feel like I'm having low testosterone because of that and the fact that I have no sexual energy.

I am wondering what is going on with me. Some of the biggest reasons I want to do NoFap is to get rid of my PIED and increase the amount of non-sexual and sexual energy in myself. However, they have been at what I think is an all-time low.

If it helps, I am a pretty healthy 15-year-old male. Any insight is appreciated.

Thank you for reading.

 

Awesome, thanks. Do you know how long these typically last? This has been going on for at least two weeks now.