Contacted a Sissy

[Porn Killer]

Warning: could be triggering. I’m not sure how much.

Ok so I have an OkCupid account. No big deal, I did what guys do to some extent, swipe right on everyone, as long as they were a high match percentage.

After swiping on several ladies I flipped through who I recently liked. Turns out one of them was a sissy.

I must specify. I’m not gay, no interest in dudes. However, porn escalation and the taboo nature of it caused me to be addicted to sissy porn, but being the dominant party.

Back to the story. I noticed one that I liked was a sissy and their info says “sissy looking for hung c***”. For some reason, I messaged them.

I really don’t want them to message back. But A small part of me, the one that’s been fading since the start of my reboot, wants them to.

I don’t want to get involved and spiral back down into the abyss I’ve been climbing up from. I feel like this is a loose rock on the cliff I’m climbing and if I grab hold I’ll fall all the way down.

Just need a bit of encouragement. Also hope everyone is doing well

 

[Immature]

don't do it. you obviously will hate yourself afterwards, if not during.

 

[todaysresolution]

afterwards you wont feel any better just upset

 

[daveintexas]

Don’t do it. The guilt and shame of completing the deed are not worth it!

 

[Deleted Account]

Road to relapse right here, I'm speaking from experience brother. Don't do it, just ignore it, maybe send him a link to nofap, but after that just block him.

 

[Tony Greenshrine]

Guys saying don't do it to an addict is kind of like pushing them towards it.

Idk what to say dude.

 

[Iguana]

The addict brain does not consider, it does not ponder on decisions when it comes to the thing it's addicted to, that's why you first messaged them despite logic telling you otherwise. Now that you're on reboot you can control your brain yet it aches for it's "dose", the fact that you can think before acting means you have a big chance to overcome this addiction and if you're in doubt then by all means stop, this is a chance to win! this is a battle worth fighting

 

[Immature]

Guys saying don't do it to an addict is kind of like pushing them towards it..

I think the fact that the OP started this thread says that he wants to be talked down.

Porn Killer, do not go through with this. It's not what you want, you will be disappointed and disgusted.

 

[Deleted Account]

Don't do it . Don't destroy your sexuality .. That's what i can say .. Its up to you whether you want to return to hell or Continue with success and successfully cross this hurdle ..

 

[Onehope]

You probably should delete that account for now while you recover. There isnt anything wrong with using a dating app, but in the recovery process you probably should avoid them.

 

[Deleted Account]

You're a porn killer. This is porn. Kill. It. Shut it down.