Hello! I’m addicted to porn. I think that’s how therapy starts right? J/k. In all seriousness, I do have a problem with porn. I’ve been watching porn consistently since the age of 12. It started with lingerie catalogs and VCR tapes, then evolved into HD Hi-speed Internet porn. I am married and I love my wife dearly. I hurt her many years ago when I lied about watching porn to her face. I broke down and told her I would stop, but I didn’t. She caught me again and it’s been rocky since. I never came up with a plan to remedy my addition, so she’s all but completely withdrawn from me in all areas, especially intimacy of every kind. I found this site a few months ago and perused the content, but that’s all. I didn’t sign up then. Now is different. I’m rebuilding myself into the man I know I can be, and maybe my wife will return to me. If she doesn’t, that’s on me, but I must quit porn for me and no one else. I am starting my 90 challenge as of today, and I will seek an accountability partner to keep me in line. I know there is email software to send notifications of illicit activity, but I’m not sure which ones are the best. The other thing is, I don’t want to pay a subscription for an email service either. I would be fine just emailing my actions directly, but the tools are helpful. Anyway, my goal is to quit porn and masturbation for 90 days. It’s hard to go a week, so this is really going to be a big change in my life. I would love to hear from you other older gentlemen who are on the same path. I see there’s a good group for my situation too. I’ll be reaching out to them tonight. To all who are on this journey of self recovery, cheers mates!
