Hello all, My name is Jay. Just a little bit about myself: I've been into porn since about 12 or 13 (I'm 25 now) and have been trying to quite ever since. The longest I've gone was about 3 or 4 months. I notice my triggers tend to be boredom, frustration, or seeing an image or person that's a little too attractive for my willpower that day. About a week ago I decided I would try giving-up once more and had been going pretty good until today. I watched an innocent youtube video about japan, which reminded me of a not so innocent video from a different site with a performer from Japan. Despite my best attempt to tell myself no, I went off to go find that video. As I was looking through for it, I noticed something about myself that I had never really noticed before. My heart was beating super fast as I was looking around. I suppose it always had done that, but I never noticed. Noticing my heart rate, for whatever reason, brought me back down to earth as I realized, I'm not in control of my own body. I told myself NO, and yet here I was looking around for stimulation that will never satisfy. There's no one I feel comfortable sharing this with in real life, but going it alone isn't working. So here I am now. I'm not sure how consistent I'll be with my log, but I do intend to do one at a minimum of once a week, hopefully more. I'm glad to be among others on the same journey, so thank you in advance to you all.