(controversial probably) attraction to kids?

Discussion in 'Problematic Sexual Behavior' started by e_pluribus_unum, Mar 24, 2019.

  1. e_pluribus_unum

    e_pluribus_unum New Fapstronaut

    So I've been having some trouble recently. I'm a 20 yr old male and I've been masturbating for years. I've had a lot of weird attractions in my past and this one I just cant let go for some reason. I really can't tell if I'm attracted to kids sexually or if I just want to have kids badly or if I can just appreciate how cute/pretty they are. Truly. I've always wanted kids but also at a younger age had somewhat of a fetish I guess? Now every time I think about it I just can't get an erection unless physical contact occurs but also at the same time there isn't as much of a drive if any like there is when I think about women. Maybe both and one just isn't as intense? I have also had a history of childhood sexual abuse so that may be contributing? I probably just need to see a counselor but idk. Also usually (almost every time) when I masturbate I'll find something that I actually enjoy but will compare the feeling and will just end up confused.
  2. BravelyKegger

    BravelyKegger Fapstronaut

    i heard lots of stories about kids becoming pedos because they were sexually abused as children, or they turn out gay, i have a couple pedophiles in my family and they were all sexually abused as kids, so if i was you i would recommend getting therapy, or just deal with it and stay away from it, but i think therapy is the best option.
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  3. StarvingSparrow

    StarvingSparrow Fapstronaut

    If it doesn't really get you aroused when you think about it then that's a good sign... abstaining from porn will probably help you learn more about yourself and drop this habit overall but its something that will haunt you for a long time. One of two things will happen, you'll start to realise that this stuff doesn't really get you off (then you'll have to struggle with getting certain things out of your head) or you'll realize that you do have a problem in which case you probably should see a therapist to understand more about it. But it starts with abstaining from porn and porn substitutes. If you need to, you can try to abstain from PMO.

    As for me, I have a problem with objectifying women (mentally not verbally) and its hard to just see them as people. I look at their features and what I'm attracted in a little more than I used to, but I definitely don't have that same problem with children. If you have some curiosity, try no PMO and if you're still unsure then therapy is probably a must. It'll be good to talk to someone about your past too.

    It's possible your body may just be running out of ways to get that dopamine fix. Hope everything works out
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