Cool New Development

I have been horny and wanting to Fap on and off for a couple of weeks now. I'm closing in on 300 days, and only 1 at dream which was back in the summer, so it makes enough sense I'd be looking for some release. I suddenly realised today, I've been wanting to jerk off. That's it. I don't want to look at porn. I don't want to go to a chat room. I don't want to do any of that. I literally just want to have a wank, without external assistance.

I'm not going to masturbate, because I'm not risking it leading to more, especially with so much progress the last six weeks. Progress I didn't even know was still in ahead of me. It was just really awesome to realise that I only wanted the MO, and had no desire to accompany it with P, P subs, or online interactions. It seems like it is only about the build up, and needing the release. I'm going to go without the release, but this is a brave new world!