I don't know where the fuck am I in this journey, although I'd assume I'm farther along than most. I go to bed pretty much every night thinking about dying. I don't know what the fuck is going on, and nobody is able to tell me how to move on or fix what I'm going through with this. Every fucking day I am "triggered" by ANYTHING that I see whether it's a fucking lame picture of a man and a woman or a slightly provocative picture of a woman, anything. How the hell am I supposed to avoid this? Everytime this happens to me, I all off a sudden miraculously feel "better" and and every couple of hours later I happen to feel like a fucking bag of smashed assholes. But nobody can tell me what the hell I'm supposed to do. I can't possibly avoid all these little triggers. My mind thinks that every single one of them is porn, every single one of them. I look at something, then happen to look back at it again: "shit I just willingly looked at a picture of a pretty girl guess I'm fucked again". This happens to me day after day after day after day. Somebody please throw me a fucking bone and tell me what I have to do and how. I've been off masturbation for over a year, and I've only had one true pornographic relapse in that year. But I still feel this shit happening everyday. I've got the mind to just fucking hang all this crap up because I can't figure out what's happening. Nobody here on these forums has any idea how to actually troubleshoot this shit, I'd love to talk to the "discoverer" of Nofap and see what he has to say. Other than that, I'm done.