Could somebody please help me?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Betterman92, Dec 17, 2014.

  1. Betterman92

    Betterman92 Fapstronaut

    I don't know where the fuck am I in this journey, although I'd assume I'm farther along than most.

    I go to bed pretty much every night thinking about dying. I don't know what the fuck is going on, and nobody is able to tell me how to move on or fix what I'm going through with this.

    Every fucking day I am "triggered" by ANYTHING that I see whether it's a fucking lame picture of a man and a woman or a slightly provocative picture of a woman, anything. How the hell am I supposed to avoid this? Everytime this happens to me, I all off a sudden miraculously feel "better" and and every couple of hours later I happen to feel like a fucking bag of smashed assholes. But nobody can tell me what the hell I'm supposed to do.

    I can't possibly avoid all these little triggers. My mind thinks that every single one of them is porn, every single one of them. I look at something, then happen to look back at it again: "shit I just willingly looked at a picture of a pretty girl guess I'm fucked again".

    This happens to me day after day after day after day. Somebody please throw me a fucking bone and tell me what I have to do and how.

    I've been off masturbation for over a year, and I've only had one true pornographic relapse in that year. But I still feel this shit happening everyday.

    I've got the mind to just fucking hang all this crap up because I can't figure out what's happening. Nobody here on these forums has any idea how to actually troubleshoot this shit, I'd love to talk to the "discoverer" of Nofap and see what he has to say. Other than that, I'm done.
  2. NoMoreBrainFog

    NoMoreBrainFog Fapstronaut

    Hey man, I'm not sure if anyone has brought this up to you before but have you ever gotten your testosterone levels checked? I've got very high test levels so I'm instantly triggered over the slightest things. My case isn't as bad as yours, but I can still understand where you're coming from. Test is what makes a boy a man and a side effect of high test levels is being horny alllll the freaking time. I don't know if this helps but I dope it does.
  3. Betterman92

    Betterman92 Fapstronaut


    No, I've never had them checked. Honestly I thought it was likely the opposite. I've never felt overly "manly" and my sex drive seems to be pretty dismal in the best of times. Maybe I'll ask for a test at my doctor's appointment on Friday though. Thanks bud.
  4. Betterman92

    Betterman92 Fapstronaut

    Does anybody have any idea what's going on? Can anybody help? I'm getting really tired of dealing with this and I feel like I'm losing progress everyday.
  5. CrossGlow

    CrossGlow Fapstronaut

    Hey can I ask you a personal question? Why did you start doing NoFap in the first place?
  6. monkotto

    monkotto Fapstronaut

    believe me one thing - you are not the only one here fighting against this shitty addiction!

    there is no charm against this addiction. for many people here this is an extrem hard fight.

    you are not losing progress. you are fighting against the withdrawal - yes every damn day! :)

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