Counting 3 wins

Discussion in 'Self Improvement' started by u376, Sep 19, 2019.

  1. u376

    u376 Fapstronaut

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    Yesterday wins
    Studied som
    Become more committed to my recovery
    Did meditation
     
  2. Today' wins

    1. Had lunch wirh colleagues
    2. Watched 3 episodes of Keijo!!!!!
    3. Didn't PMO
     
  3. PeterGrip

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    3 wins today:

    1. Attended class
    2. Said no to pizza
    3. Took responsibility for a group assignment

    I love this thread! Thanks!
     
  4. One Eyed Owl

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    Today's Wins:

    1. Ran
    2. Finished Erased (would recommend watching)
    3. Walked

    @u376 Wow....that ending was pretty good.
     
  5. kunal_n

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    Today's win:
    1. Had good time with friend
    2. Ate with father out.
    3. Had good time with family.
     
  6. u376

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    Yesterday wins
    Interacted with my little cousins....which was awkward at times
    Took cold bath
    Did meditation
     
  7. Biggus Dickus

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    Went running even though I did not feel like it
    Listened to a podcast of Paul Chek and took inspiration from it
    Took care of some annoying paperwork for an insurance
     
  8. Today's wins:

    Huge realizations after smoking a small joint after 70+ days without smoking:

    1. I have fallen asleep with my recovery process:

    I stopped focusing on turning my life and way of thinking upside down and instead I replaced my P addiction by (a) animes which are often times borderline with lost of sexual innuendos and partial nudity (without even realizing it; my brain was obviously rationalizing this) and (b) sexting with a girl with whom I had sex.

    I need to stop that with immediate effect.

    I don't count this as a relapse, but now that I've come to my senses, I as of this moment solemnly declare that these are P-subs and need to be banned from my world.

    I also need to stop browsing the nofap forums. I will only come daily to post my successes on this thread and stay accountable to you guys. But I won't browse the rest of the forums especially not the four first ones which I think are really unhealthy to read after 70 days without P.

    Instead, I need to focus on changing my life and my way of thinking to completely change the old me into my new me.

    2. I need to keep doing nofap, but restrict it to almost monk mode (near the 75%-80% monk area). I also need to persevere with my abstinence from other addictions (weed, tobacco, coffee, compulsive M) which I have not relapsed into.

    The joint I just smoked was a courtesy gesture from a friend who just harvested hia homegrown plants and wanted me to give him a feedback.

    I'm glad I accepted because I now have all of these productive thoughts.

    Normally, weed leads me straight to P: this time, I fought sexual thoughts and finally won by letting them pass through and then having tuis insane epiphany.

    3. I fantasized for maybe 5-10mn straight because of the weed I smoked. But then I had this huge realization that fantasizing was shit and just bad and pointless. It was such a waste of time. Like I really now see how it was thw monster inside me trying to take its powwr back. I realized I would rather do anything but fantasize. I then thought about watching a movie but I thought it would be a waste of time too. So I decided to stop doijg stupid passive shitty activities and do productive stuff such as: learning about and working on how to change my life and way of thinking, do productive things like play a stockmarket trading game with friends who invited me to participate 4 months ago and kindly remainded me that I could still join, etc. Which I actually did. I hope my friends will see that I care about their friendship and that I want to have fun with them rather than being secluded in my fantasy world.

    I did maybe 20 guided relaxation sessions at the beginning of my streak but somehow I stopped doing that. I will start this habbit over tonight as I havr learned so much from it already. I believe I realized right now that it taught me to dislike fantasizing: it is a clear example that I am not present and living in the moment. On the contrary, I am 100% in my head and disconnected from reality. It's just terrible.

    Reminds me of my dark days in P and weed addiction: the guilt, the shame, the fear.

    I WILL NEVER GO BACK!!
     
    Last edited: Oct 30, 2019
  9. Keep up the cold bath and meditation man. I need to follow your path. These are great habbits that need to be cultivated.

    I totally get it for interacting with young cousins. For me too the experience is always a bit awkward.
     
  10. Nothing more liberating than taking care of overdue annoying paperwork!
     
  11. u376

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    Actually they are more confident and social than me
    They are of age groups from 14-20
     
  12. One Eyed Owl

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    Today's Wins:

    1. Did laundry
    2. Finished Psycho-Pass (would recommend, has really good world building)
    3. Walked
     
  13. u376

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    I think psycho pass was ok ok
    1st season was good because of that black haired guy.....
    Also the opening song is good.......but later it bored me
     
  14. Biggus Dickus

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    1. Hit the gym
    2. Had a good conversation with a friend
    3. Made it through 8 hours of lectures in university
     
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  15. PeterGrip

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    1. Woke up late, but managed to go for a run before school anyway.
    2. After several hours of work with my study group, I was not satisfied with a particular task I had completed earlier that day. When I got home, I sat down and rewrote the thing (programming) instead of hitting the couch straight away.
    3. Learned something about myself: I've come to realize my dieting (ketogenic) is draining my willpower, that could otherwise be spent to study harder. I've decided to loosen up on it, until I am ready to give it another go. Even if keto is higher performance on paper, I do not have the willpower to utilize it.
     
  16. Today's wins:

    1. Closed an annoying administrative procedure.
    2. Went out for dinner with friends (on my initiative).
    3. Didn't PMO.
     
  17. kunal_n

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    Yesterday's win:
    1. Renovated home
    2. Helped neighbour
    3. slept earlier
     
  18. One Eyed Owl

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    Today's Wins:

    1. Read a book
    2. Took a nap
    3. Walked
     
  19. christian17

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    Yestetday wins:

    Didnt watch porn
    Learned a bit for school
    Made a phone call instead of writing messages like a pussy
     
  20. Today's wins:

    1. Visites my grand parents.
    2. Found a new hobby (stock trading simulator).
    3. Worked on remaining calm while half of my family was already arguing about Christmas.
     
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