Countless failed relationships, finally something had to be done.

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by THEdally_llama, May 8, 2019.

  1. THEdally_llama

    THEdally_llama Fapstronaut

    94
    97
    18
    I have currently been without pornography for 37 days. It's the longest streak I've ever had since I started watching porn at the age of 13. SINCE 1 FUCKING 3.

    Boy I wish I would've done this sooner...

    It took me 1-ish years since I realized I may be struggling with pornography/sex addiction. Up to this point, I had been struggling with ridding pornography from my life. I had countless relationships fall apart because I couldn't get hard, or had sexual performance issues. Over and over it would happen. Yet, I still refrained from doing anything about it. I witnessed my father/mother's marriage fall apart because my dad was a sex addict. Yet, I made excuses, ignored my problem, and paid the price.

    My silver lining came when I broke my heart over a girl who I had been having sexual relations with. I thought this girl was perfect. We had so much in common together, we had similar values, thought processes, and everything! We had sex the first couple times we met, with the help of liquid courage I was able to overcome my addiction nightmare for the nights we were together. After coming back from a vacation where I excessively masturbated and watched pornography, I went straight to this girls house. I couldn't wait to see her! I had been waiting the whole vacation to come back and lay down with her and cuddle and watch movies, have sex, and go hang out somewhere!

    Yet, I couldn't make love at night... or in the morning after I woke up with her. It hurt her feelings. Sure enough, it was the benchmark for the beginning of the end of our short-lived relationship.

    I tried and tried to have one more chance with her, but it never happened. I vowed that I would never feel this low again, and that I would do everything in my power to rid the poison that has kept me from developing relationships further.

    I went to the doctor, told her I had ED. I was hoping she'd give me medication, but she told me it was mental. I had told her I suffered from mild pre-sex anxiety, but left out the important details of my addiction to pornography and masturbation.

    37 days later, I get normal erections. I have slept with a couple women and have had no problems getting hard. Have had no issues feeling aroused. It's one of the best feelings ever and I'm so glad I overcame this issue for now. I'm sure I'll be tested if I ever go on a dry streak, but I don't intend on ever going back to porn because of what it has done to me and my potential relationships.

    If you're out there, and need motivation. Read my story. If it's not enough, eventually you'll find a time where you realize you need to fix it right away.

    My goal is to go 90 days with no pornography, then start working on 90 days without masturbation. Baby steps.
     
    Last edited: May 8, 2019
  2. SirErnest

    SirErnest Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    1,324
    14,068
    143
    Half-way-house approach seems to be paying off so far. Good stuff.
     
  3. xvtc ctvx

    xvtc ctvx Fapstronaut

    Congrats. I had a similar rock bottom that led me to NoFap. I hope that never again I fumble a great relationship due to PIED.

    Someone mentioned here a quote, I'd rather be ready and not have the opportunity than have an opportunity and not be ready. It's an awful feeling.

    I am doing 60 day hard mode before having sex again because I've had a lot of sex addiction in past two decades and very severe PIED - probably need a full 90+ days but as you say, baby steps. :)
     
    Deleted Account and SirErnest like this.
  4. SirErnest

    SirErnest Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    1,324
    14,068
    143
    Indeed. At the moment, I would rather look back on the number of days than plan for them. Filling time with other stuff...
     
  5. xvtc ctvx

    xvtc ctvx Fapstronaut

    Counting days is tough but I think it is necessary. Without first having a goal like "7 days" or "30 days" you are sort of just sailing around a vast ocean in circles. Once you have the goal in mind then you need to make sure you are sticking to it by logging it in. Don't give up!
     
  6. SirErnest

    SirErnest Fapstronaut
    NoFap Defender

    1,324
    14,068
    143
    I'm counting moments more. I guess they build up to days, weeks etc. If a do well in the moments, and if I keep doing it, then I do well in life.
     

Share This Page