Countless hours wasted. On mission for a permanent reboot.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by notime2waste, May 7, 2017.

  1. notime2waste

    notime2waste Fapstronaut

    Hi all,

    It's a classic case: at 11 y/o I found a VHS (ha! yeah I'm a gen. x) in my deceased grandfather's belongings. I put it in and my eyes got as big as saucers, viewing this gross yet intriguing video of a woman pleasuring herself. A couple years later, a friend in the neighborhood invited a couple of us over to watch porn. We all sat there mesmerized, gawking, quiet, studying. After that, I started borrowing VHS's from a couple friends in the neighborhood. And then I found desperate yet inventive ways to watch when I didn't have a VHS dose...I began watching the 'scrambled' late night HBO, Showtime channels (remember that?)...lots of video distortion but every now and then you would catch a glimpse of something and the audio was clear. Then came the internet...and it was a wrap. Here I've been for 22 years, addicted...yes, I have to use that word because when things aren't going right in my life, I self-medicate to get that short euphoria, that then disappears as quickly as it came (didn't mean that pun but it works).

    Currently I'm going through turbulence in a number of my close relationships and, of course by default, I have been turning to porn and masturbation more and more regularly. I want this to stop cold turkey, today.

    I've tried internet programs in the past, I've gone years w/o porn and fapping, I've had success. I know at this point it will be a life-long thing that I struggle with BUT I'm dedicated to better management of it going forward today. This will include healthy living in all areas. I wrote a thread in the Accountability Partners forum and would love to link up with anyone who is on mission for the same.

    Thanks for reading my story and I look fwd to sharing our successes together.

    To no porn!
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  2. Kahuna81

    Kahuna81 Fapstronaut

    Hey good luck bro.
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  3. notime2waste

    notime2waste Fapstronaut

  4. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you.

    The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
  5. Trevorphilipz

    Trevorphilipz Fapstronaut

    Hey, man, your story is better than mine. I started checking out tits when I was a kid, it was akward, very akward, but tits were something I liked. Found my first playboy at my grandparents house when I was around 10 and have been hooked on porn pretty much since then. When the internet came out and we got our first computer when I was in High School, the first thing I did was checked for porn sites. Ever since I had learned about the abundant sites offering free porn, my life has been around porn and masturbation, though I wouldn't say it revolved around those things. Now, time has passed and I'm in my 30's and looking to give up my reliance on porn and fapping. Also, since I am trying to do the whole Christian thing, I have spiritual reasons to want to give up porn and masturbation. A tough thing to give up on your own, but it's always nice to know there's a helping hand out there. You're not weird or a freak, you're a man and every man has masturbated or something to that effect when he has reached a certain age. Stay strong, bro and good luck to you.

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